Lyrics Dopamine - VZN , The Neverending Mixtape

I'm lost and falling
I'm lost and falling
I'm lost and falling
I'm lost and falling

A Saturday night, a day like the others
I drink at the bar, I laugh with the brothers
Until I woke up, was practically covered
With grime and dirt, I find the first
And blood is burst, my body work on high alert
I'm dying, hurt, I'll die of thirst
I hear some noise and heavy sound is by the curb
Click clack, room is shaking like a dying earth
I scream, seeing green how the light flowing
Time is stopping in my mind like hammers showing
My body flowing
I hear a yell
You motherfuck, you fucking bum
You want to die
Go find another place to go and kill yourself
That's when the realization hit
I was knocked the fuck out in a dumpster bin
I was probably robbed of half my shit
So I asked the garbage guy if I could use his phone
I'm fucked up right now dog, I need to get home
I don't even have my wallet
Shit

My body drowning in that dopamine
Don't get close to me
This ain't where I'm 'posed to be
But feel like home to me
Gone I'm off the map, not coming back
The smoke just spoke to me
Meditate with medication, double what your doses be
Floating by
I'm lost but at what cost I'm poltergeist
Roll the dice
The fuck's the point, cause either choice ain't mine
Lonely nights
With the Holy Ghost, these be the lowest highs
Think my fate is coming
Pearly gates await close to my time
Baby I'm sorry, I'm drunk again
I keep on fucking up but I would never fuck your friend
I'm right here waiting, why the fuck you'd ever fuck with him
You say I'm crazy baby, you ain't seeing nothing yet
Suck my dick, succulent
The fuck is this, clutch the clip
It's gripped but I'm slipping, I lost my grip on what matters
Can't catch me tripping, disaster
Is catching up to me
She screaming fuck me while she's fucking me
I just need some guidance for my steps, that be enough for me
Dopamine
Baby don't get close to me
Home is gone
I'm right where I'm 'posed to be
Holding on
To the branches of that potent tree
Oh it's strong
Think I'm falling down these lonely streets
Dopamine

It's a Sunday morning but it's too early for church,
It's 2 A.M. and I'm out and about for no real reason and I'm getting that urge
I'm fucked up, I run across another stumbling drunk
I can tell by his smell he can handle his bourbon, the way he's burping
He mumbled some gibberish at me
I said what
He said what I thought was a four letter word
So I swung
I wasn't in the mood for the bullshit
Hit him with a cold fist, told him to go home and kill himself
Reminded him that he's nothing to no one
And he should just go on
But he got back up so I hit him with an uppercut
Busted his lip
Shoved him in the alleyway in a dumpster
Ripped his wallet for some quick cash
Threw his phone against the brick wall til it smashed
Look I ain't saying I'm proud of it
But I don't even really know the why or the how of it
Now excuse me before I'm late for church
These demons lying deep in me
And I deal with them frequently
It hurts

I'm lost and falling
I'm lost and falling
I'm lost and falling
I'm lost and falling