Lyrics Forever by My Side - Three A.M.

Flip open this pad
Reminiscing a throwback
Like I'm PTSD with a war time Flashback
It's like we ain't talked in years, now Please write back
Like hurried scribbles intact
Notes about my past
Don't know how to act
The old me gone like I've passed
I ain't slept in days, i just wanna Crash
I'm stuck up in my brain
Counting down these slowing days
Like I'm mentally deranged
Painting mental pictures of the pain
Like Im Thomas Kincaid
I'm enslaved to this game
Perfectly flawed but ive gone insane
And now I'm feelin drained
Like a broken record with my Feelings
Promise I'll refrain
I'm stuck on repeat though I know Im needing lifes change
Jotting down these notes
I can't seem to stay afloat
Work my hands to the bone
Yet still ain't got shit to show
It's almost like I fail to grow
But I owe this flow
For pickin me up when I'm low
Forever by my side, it's all I know
Jotting down these notes
I can't seem to stay afloat
Work my hands to the bone
Yet still ain't got shit to show
It's almost like I fail to grow
But I owe this flow
Feeling down and feeling broke
I know it's not forever though
Brain is feeling scattered
My thoughts can't seem to be Gathered
Inner self is worn and tattered
Its like why should i bother
To pick myself up?
It doesn't even really matter
Got my pad and my pen, almost like A kiss from karma
Jot what comes to my mind
Waking up to thoughts entwined
Twisted memories internalized
I hide behind these eyes
Only time
I'm feeling fine
Is when I'm out here on my grind
Tunnel vision like I'm blind
Just to deal with demons inside
Writers block hits me hard
Depression hits me harder
Anxiety got me gasping like I'm Treading water
It's like I'm drowning
I can't breathe
I can't seek internally
At least not til the morning comes And my thoughts are sobering
Jotting down these notes
I can't seem to stay afloat
Work my hands to the bone
Yet still ain't got shit to show
It's almost like I fail to grow
But I owe this flow
For pickin me up when I'm low
Forever by my side, it's all I know
Jotting down these notes
I can't seem to stay afloat
Work my hands to the bone
Yet still ain't got shit to show
It's almost like I fail to grow
But I owe this flow
Feeling down and feeling broke
I know it's not forever though
I've had an epiphany
A brand new beginning
This vicious cycle got me pinned, And I can't pretend
That the bottle hasn't always been My best friend
I love to hate it, next I know its like Here we go again
Hit the pad
I'm back to rhyming
Here I am back to writing
It's the only way I got to reflect on Whats inside me
Inner demons are needing Conquering and dividing
Sometimes I feel weak, other times I Wish they'd fuckin try me
I'm feeling like a new man
I'm rich, feelin like that ice up on my Wrist well beyond a grand
I'm blessed with this gift
Why I'm feeling so rich
Gimme time I'll be shinin like a Diamond
Time to work for this
Jotting down these notes
I can't seem to stay afloat
Work my hands to the bone
Yet still ain't got shit to show
It's almost like I fail to grow
But I owe this flow
For pickin me up when I'm low
Forever by my side, it's all I know
Jotting down these notes
I can't seem to stay afloat
Work my hands to the bone
Yet still ain't got shit to show
It's almost like I fail to grow
But I owe this flow
Feeling down and feeling broke
I know it's not forever though