Lyrics Statistics & Psychoanalytics - Three A.M.

All I've ever asked for was some Clarity
So embarrassing
When mentally you're panicking
When you have to admit you need Therapy
The question is, are you prepared to See?
Depression i keep bottled up in me?
Anxiety that makes me feel weak?
Reasons why the meds don't work For me?
I'm feelin like I'm cursed by this Fuckin psychotherapy
Im wasting my time with this Psychiatry
I spit what i feel, the voices screamin Its a masterpiece
My album drops, it's a classic Instantly
All I know is I needed this booth Therapy
I don't really care if you're a damn Fan of me
You'd rather live in a fucked up day Dream,
Just hopin for relief only death can Bring
Ya start to go insane
Ya going out ya brain
Mentally when you start to feel Drained
You start to wonder what should be Left to blame
Genetics, memories, or delusional Fame
Or does it all come down to Tolerance of pain?
Subconsciously you feel like nothing Is left to gain
God ain't listenin when you lie Awake and pray
I just wish someone would hear what I need to say
I just can't take it anymore before I Start to break
I can't explain, its like I've been Lobotomized
If you glance in my eyes
You can see what a hollow man's Soul is like
You don't really have a choice, but to Swallow ya pride
I've lost all autonomy
And honestly
It's probably
Cuz of this psychiatry
The truth in clarity
Is I need therapy
Embarrassing
Its absolutely devastating
Alienated from the normal Population
Like every thing you say and do is Questioned
People really think there's no Madness to my method?
My mentality is everyone's obsession
They care about my illness not the Progression
Shelter kids away from me while They teach acceptance
I do this to release my god damn Aggression
I'm over societies fuckin double Standards
I do this for me not anybody else
That's why I sit weekly on this Freudian couch
Going on and on about how the Meds don't help
I refuse to change anything to get Myself out this hell
Does the therapy help? I can't seem To tell.
Mentally I'm triggered like I'm Hearin pavlovs bell
Self medicating killin these Neurologic cells
Got me locked up in my mind like I'm rotting in jail
Rotting in hell, I'm living With torment
It's like all I do is reminisce Misfortune
So many things mentally I've Repressed and
I wanna be alone but always craving Acceptance
The second there's a sign of social Interaction
I shut down and don't let anyone in
My therapist says it's a natural Reaction
Just take deep breaths and count From 10
I always seem to choke on the words Between my lips
I'd rather be silent over a Freudian Slip
Im beginning to lose reality's grip
Like these pills aren't meant as a Permanent fix
I guess it's true ignorance really is Bliss
You think I'm fucked up but Im Needing this
You may think I'm crazy after Hearing this
But I'm safely medicated, says my Therapist
I can't explain, its like I've been Lobotomized
If you glance in my eyes
You can see what a hollow man's Soul is like
You don't really have a choice, but to Swallow ya pride
I've lost all autonomy
And honestly
It's probably
Cuz of this psychiatry
The truth in clarity
Is I need therapy
Embarrassing
Its absolutely devastating
I do this to cope, I do this to heal
I do this to delve into what's Mentally real
But the bottle doesn't help and Neither do the pills
Broken records on repeat asking How I feel
I feel like I'm nothing but another Statistic
While you're out to better Psychoanalytics
Judge me all you want for taking part In this
But I got 2 fingers for all the fuckin Critics
I can't explain, its like I've been Lobotomized
If you glance in my eyes
You can see what a hollow man's Soul is like
You don't really have a choice, but to Swallow ya pride
I've lost all autonomy
And honestly
It's probably
Cuz of this psychiatry
The truth in clarity
Is I need therapy
Embarrassing
Its absolutely devastating