Lyrics New Reality - Umbra

To consume or be consumed
Forget the pain for a second
Just to relive the pain
Only to bring more
Everything you've tried
Has only worsened your life
But there is a place
An escape from the lies
Where your truly free
From the suffering
To a virtual world
Where you are not you
Transcending conciseness into another reality
What does it mean to be alive?
But as I was never really living
The technicalities are meaningless
Abruptly I wake in a small room
I walk to the only door and open to see
A future city built beyond the skies
The clouds block their end
And I feel like I am awake
Here in this new reality I'm free
Free from the shackles of suffering
For once it's not a constant torture
Consumed by ecstasy
This reality becomes what I make it
My thoughts are the limitations
To this expansive reality
Indistinguishable from the real world
But in every way better
Basic desires fulfilled at will
Able to eat endlessly
And to never tire
A constant state of euphoria
And forever feeling aroused
It can be whatever you want
It comes at no expense
And you come a thousand times
And as all my thoughts become real
There is nothing left undone
If I was always looking to feeling complete
Why am I so empty?
Was this not all I want?
Is there more to life?
For far to long I've sought answers
How to fix my life
And now too late I realized
Just how much I've fucked it
This was never the cure
This was just another high
A momentary escape from the pain
Now I am crashing down
To this hellish existence
And now I cannot escape
No doors to exit
No secret tunnels
As far as I can tell
There is no way out
I cannot wake up
I am stuck here forever
In this eternal delusion
Not back to reality
Just clarity of mind
That I will always suffer
I have shot myself
And the bleeding never ends
The pain is all to familiar
The only thing I truly know
It's a little comforting
It's the only thing that's real
Alone in this cluttered world
I have no one to love
I entered this virtual hell
I alone chose my way
And as no one can take me out
I am stuck here eternally
Forever meaninglessly wondering
A world that is foreign
A world that is not real
But my new reality
All my failures have led me to this
I have always felt so alone
But never as truly as I am now
In this world I wished for
I wander aimlessly for meaning
A meaning that will never come
There is nothing I can do
And I must live with my self
And the days I have spent here
Nothing has been done to the real me
What has become of me?
Has anything been done at all?
And here is where I go beyond
As I am gone and my mind transcends
I permanently enter this reality
To this eternal suffering
Another hell to belong too
Long to be forgotten
By the world
Only in a cold metal memory
I am once again spiraling down
I am once again falling endlessly
Into this new reality