Lyrics Dear Lord - V Squad

I stumbled upon my pops stash of pornos at 11
Those are visions sketched into my brain I never will forget
We never had no talk about no birds, about no bees, as far as sex
I wasn't prepared, there were no father-son lessons
My first rendezvous I was a fool, had no protection
No pregnancy, no STD, you might call that a blessing
I call that God's grace and mercy, Lord is my shepherd
But those seeds planted something deep-rooted in my flesh
I thought I put to death, I guess my choice of weapon wasn't correct
It's definitely my lack of prayer, spiritual disconnection
Got me missing out on blessings, I'm deaf caz I keep rejecting

The voices in my head, I keep pretending not to hear em
Lord knows I don't wanna grieve the Holy Spirit
Dear Lord
Dear Lord
Dear Lord
The voices in my head, I keep pretending not to hear em
Lord knows I don't wanna grieve the Holy Spirit
Dear Lord
Dear Lord

The right I wanna do, I don't, but wrong things I still do
I've prayed for years, what does it take dear Lord to get this thorn removed
I've read your word, I read your word, I believe every word is true
You said your grace is sufficient, I don't wanna grace abuse
I feel filthy, empty, and guilty unworthy, and pitiful
This isn't me feeling sorry for myself, but I'm speaking truthfully
And what confuses me after confession and repentance
Is thinking I got a grip, then repeating the sin again
Ashamed and afraid to face the Lord, in fear of the consequences
Even though I know my savior already paid the penalty
The voices in my head are telling me I've been forgiven
And guilt should be the vehicle that chauffeurs me to repentance if I listen
If I listen
If I listed
To the voices in my head, I keep pretending not to hear em
Lord knows I don't wanna grieve the Holy Spirit
Dear Lord
Dear Lord