Lyrics Substance Abuse - Zakk Genni

Yeah
I need me a doctor or something cause I'm feeling strange
Yeah, I'm feeling numb
Still when I look in the mirror I hate my reflection
I feel like I'm never enough
I feel like I'll never recover, I love it too much
There's birds in my stomach
I need me an addy or something
I'm losing my focus I need to get out of this habit

Yeah
They talking down on my habits
But look at the facts, I'm not happy to have them
This pain that I feel, you can never imagine
Been beaten so much that I lost my compassion
Defeat don't mean much, I'm still up for the challenge
People they judge while I'm out wreaking havoc
Well they sit at home with their face in the phone

Shit, that just might be poetic

Yeah, I got my struggles
I'm working it out
I'm fighting these demons you don't know about
Picking up pieces that shouldn't have fell
And when I'm sleeping, I'm visiting hell
Waking up screaming, alone, and confused
The weight on my chest is too heavy to move
Taking a breath is too scary to do Shadows are moving around in the room
Depression, anxiety, and substance abuse
Created a side of me with nothing to lose
Echoes inside of me singing the blues
So I'm not alone but the silence is new
Fuck all the fakes, they're killing my mood
Fuck all these snakes, I'm killing them too
I'm coming with blades and cutting them out
Keep talking shit and get punched in your mouth

When I'm feeling down, I get really high
I need me a bitch that'll stick by my side
I got 13 reasons, just don't got the time
They say I need Jesus but I don't like wine
You can't stop my breathing cause I cannot die
Keeping these secrets locked up in my mind
If I die a genie, I won't be surprised
I know that you see me, bitch, open your eyes

And that's just the way that it goes
Live in the darkness until you can glow
I'm making money, put my wrist on froze
Head to my toes, look at these clothes
These are not regular diamonds look at the way that they glow
Check out my flow,
My girl is hotter than fire but diamonds be keeping her cold
Reap what you sow, bitch

Yeah
I need me a doctor or something cause I'm feeling strange
Yeah, I'm feeling numb
Still when I look in the mirror, I hate my reflection
I feel like I'm never enough
I feel like I'll never recover, I love it too much
There's birds in my stomach,
I need me an addy or something
I'm losing my focus, I need to get out of this habit

Yeah, I know there's bullshit that I can't erase
Shit in my past, yeah, I made some mistakes
It makes me sad but I won't be ashamed
Cause all that I am is because of those days
Living in hell, I was afraid
Every day was too scary to face
I was alone and I don't like space, embracing the traits that my mama gave

And chasing that high always made me feel low
I don't know why I pay for a phone
Nobody text, nobody call
I lost my friends when I started to focus on me and do shit for myself,
I've been starting to see that it's everyone else
Can't live in the past, there's no going back
No fixing mistakes, so move on and change

Yeah
Nobody believed in me
And
Told me to give up my dreams
But
I got an ocean to beat
I don't got a boat, but still you gon' see
I'm making waves, rocking your boat
Rocking this shit with my melodic flows
She don't behave, and act like a hoe
I'm taking her home and making her "O"