Lyrics IDK - Zom B

Stuck but I'm growing
Hurt and its showing
Wind isn't blowing
On me I can feel the heat
Scarring tissue deeper issue
God I miss you pull the pistol
Blow my brains out what'd they say now
If I gave out if I caved now
Would they care would they share
If I gave my life
Would everyone be alright
Should I just end it tonight
Could they see through my lies
When I say I'm alright
When I don't see the light
When I don't know what's right
I don't know what's wrong
Put it in songs Then I go back And listen again
Love it is gone Thought it would last when will it end
Subliminal match lighting the fuse Sparking the fire
What will I choose lifting me higher before I lose
Preach to the choir changing my shoes
Fueling desire love and misuse
Feeling the cage and I'm Spilling the rage
With all that I'm saying I'm going insane
Noise in my brain I'm feeling deranged
Love and pain are one and the same

Falling i'm falling I'm falling again
Wonder I wonder when it will end
Calling I'm crawling i'm down on my knees
Somebody someone cure this disease

Sun isn't shining
Feel like I'm dieing
Darkness is rising
Over me I can't see defeat
I'm awake I'm alive
I know what I feel inside
Cut my tounge taste the high
Pain it only says goodbye
Too much hurt feel im cursed
Blocked it out nothing now
In my brain I've gone insane
Stand my ground grow my roots
Acting out throwing hoops
Missed the bottle hit the throttle
Going to fast now I'm digging the dirt
I'll always be last but I'm moving to first
Changing up lanes i'm hitting the brakes
Hands start to shake is this really it
Stuck at the bottom while I'm tipping the bottle
Lost all the cards cause I'm thinking I gottem
I need to fold but I'm liking the hits
Pain warms my soul I don't know how to quit
Sharpen the blade just to worsen the pain
Blade to my skin like a lovers embrace
Smile on my face stuck in a daze
Mind is numb as the light starts to fade
It's all in my head but it's there everyday
The feeling of death is what keeps me awake