Lyrics transfer song - carter c

Miss a train board a train watch someone die
Never home in my dorm I'd rather be up north
I'm so scared to be alone and I have no friends
And I wanna kill myself because of my meds
I hate myself

I haven't gone to class in weeks and I spend all my money on Flixbus tickets
I want to transfer schools
I take the train every other day
I'm so fucking tired and I never ever wanna wake up

(Oh and what's my routine?)
Shave my chest every day plus my arms and legs
Try to not skip a meal but I'll forget again
Missing friends who treated me like shit
I feel like Millie would call my life a bit
I'm a joke (in the most recent Yard podcast episode)

I feel trapped inside portland's finest suicide goldmine
I'm failing everybody even me
I can't get out of bed in a hellscape made in my image
And I guess in river's too

I haven't gone to class in weeks and I spend all my money on flixbus tickets
I want to transfer schools
I take the train every other day
I'm so fucking tired and I never ever wanna wake up

I feel trapped inside portland's finest suicide goldmine
I'm failing everybody even me
I can't get out of bed in a hellscape made in my image
And I guess I'm giving up today