Lyrics pang of conscience - courtega

Lost in gray
Ideations everyday
It's too late, I know this
My tears, I can't hold
Back the pain
Oh god, she's playing games
If I go a single day without these pills I'll go insane
She has good intentions but she doesn't know my way
I told her to stay back, now I'm attached
Need her to stay
Without you as my friend, I don't wanna' live today
Disappointed and upset, now you're going away

Low tolerance for emotion
I can't leave it behind in the ocean
Distort it, tick it, abort it
Now my skin and bones are corroded
Eyes all red, bloodshot from my tears
Gem of my life; I still care, always here
Hoping that someday you'll come back and soothe my fears
But I know that you're gone forever
Dead's the way I feel

You said you'd always be here (Remember when)
Said she always had time (I'm stuck in my brain)
Always time for me (Tryna' find a way)
To call if I need (To learn to live again)
Was that just nothing?
Nothing? (Without you as my friend)

(My friend)
(Friend)
(Friend)