Lyrics Paranoid - craw

Yeah I'm doing drugs I wake myself up for the day
How my shoulder shrugs when you ask if I'm okay
Blacking out in clubs when you see me don't say hey
Watching out above that's when you see me call the play

I know there's shit I need to fix like when I don't think I exist
I'm in my bag I got the tricks I lost my mind I'm doing flips
I say my bad I'm fucking sick you think it's bad I'll show you this
I think it's sad it's come to this I think my hearts in an abyss

My family isn't well that's why I couldn't get a grip
It ain't no saving by the bell like I don't want your fucking tip
Like I got stories I can tell it's like I need another sip
I drop a 40 on the cell and wonder why I let it rip

I feel the damage to my brain it's something that I cannot handle
You see me walking in the rain it's like I'm looking for my ammo
How I'm dealing with my pain I live my life like a soprano
Lost my way don't have a main you see me drop the damn piano

If you leave me then I'm flying promise that I'll follow you
It's like my family's fucking dying if they do then I will too
I see my mother fucking crying like this shit came out the blue
I wish that I could say I'm lying this is shit I'm going through

Like I know I'm not okay when I look at the way I'm living
And I know I'll see the day remind myself I'm always driven
This is why I'm MIA the shit I have it's never given
How my mind is not at bay I'm feeling like I've finally risen

I make my art no benefit
I leave my mark don't mention it
I'm off the chart can't render it
I know I'm smart I been through it

I know it's hard to get it quick
I pull the card to take a pick
I crash the car to show I'm sick
I take it far I know the trick

It's like I did too many drugs I hope that I can feel again
It's like I'm always paranoid I always tend to wonder when
It's like I'm scared to go annoy the people who say that they care
I got an army I'll deploy wait for the sequel I'm not there

I shed a tear for awful times like thats the shit that fucking made me
And I live just like a mime I don't do talking fuck a maybe
And I feel like I'm behind it's how I am my vision wavy
And I'll know when it's my time I been in touch go call me crazy

Ain't no food inside my stomach haven't ate for fucking days
I'm never scared to take a plummet never scared to set the way
You know that I was busy running took my time to separate
It's like I'm busy fucking hunting ways that I will see my fate