Lyrics Bloodstain - $ebbuku

See the door close then I hear it lock
Miss-used toy thrown inside of a box
Stuck in a room with nobody I know
There's pain in my chest is starting to grow

I'm losing weight and it's starting to show
Messages asking me "where did you go"
This pain was a gift that I had to bestow
My friends and my freedom I had to forgo

Walked in the room
Don't know how I'm feeling
I got the room with the highest ceiling
Felt so bad man my skin was peeling
All I could hear was incessant screaming

(I'm not allowed to express my emotions
I'm not allowed to show how I feel
I'm not allowed to do what I want
Cuz if I do that ima get me killed)

Can't talk about it, it's classed as taboo
Blood stained on your skin, it looks like a tattoo
The system is (Scratch), but what can you do
Society's where the world tares you in two
Living my life stuck in GMT
You'll only succeed if you get a Degree
Only way out is to offer a plea
Look at my life, all that's left is debris

Can't talk about it, it's classed as taboo
Blood stained on your skin, it looks like a tattoo
The system is (Scratch), but what can you do
Society's where the world tares you in two
Living my life stuck in GMT
You'll only succeed if you get a Degree
Only way out is to offer a plea
Look at my life, all thats left is debris

Suicide all on the news
Doing it all for the Views
Yes I'm a victim to my own abuse
They act like it's funny but I'm not amused

Met my best friends
Closed my eyes and saw my enemies
Never thought that it would end
But now they're distant memories

Family's scared cuz they've seen propaganda
Now I'm scared cuz I can't let em down
My grandma said "tell me, got far, have ya?"
The furthest I went was a trip out to town

High ambitions but don't get too keen
I'm nothing but a hopeless teen
In bed by 9:15
Make sure your blade is clean

Back in my house now, its been 4 months
Hard to believe that I lived here once
One more problem I've gotta confront
Consistently sober but Wished I was drunk

Always watched, 1984
Thoughts breaking in, but I'm holding the door
Trapped in a place where I have no power
There's tears on the floor and there's my blood in the shower

5 Months in and I'm missing my life
5 months in and I snuck in a knife
2 months left and I'm seeing the light
One day feeling hope and then gone overnight

(I'm not allowed to express my emotions
I'm not allowed to show how I feel
I'm not allowed to do what I want
Cuz if I do that ima get me killed)

Can't talk about it, it's classed as taboo
Blood stained on your skin, it looks like a tattoo
The system is (Scratch), but what can you do
Society's where the world tares you in two
Living my life stuck in GMT
You'll only succeed if you get a Degree
Only way out is to offer a plea
Look at my life, all thats left is debris

Can't talk about it, it's classed as taboo
Blood stained on your skin, it looks like a tattoo
The system is (Scratch), but what can you do
Society's where the world tares you in two
Living my life stuck in GMT
You'll only succeed if you get a Degree
Only way out is to offer a plea
Look at my life, all thats left is debris

See the door close then I hear it lock
Miss-used toy got out of the box
Leaving the room with somebody I know
Theres pain in my chest but it's starting to slow

I'm gaining weight and it's starting to show
Messages asking me "where did you go"
This pain was a gift that I had to bestow
My friends and my freedom were back at my home

Got in my car in the pouring rain
Look back at my past, despair and my pain
A friend came out and looked at my face
Put his hand on my shoulder and said "Be safe"

Living my life stuck in GMT
Teaching myself who I'm gonna be
Now telling my story on BBC
Look at my life, built up from debris