Lyrics afterparty - enpii

Is it obvious enough that I'm a mess
I pop balloons and win in pity party contests
I'd rather lie to you, but tonight I should confess
I'm so sorry, I still love you, and I'm always thinking of you
I know, I know, I know, it's for the best
The fun is gone, and now the party's over
I sing some songs, pretend I'm not depressed
And in the end, I hope you have your closure
Who cleans up after the afterparty
I'm messed up like the scenes we see on the big screen
I'm so done faking, straight pretending that we're grown
Just tryin' to find our way back home
Confetti on the dance floor, warm bodies all around me
Like T-swift on a world tour singing 1989 things
The color of my red cheeks fade to the darkest black
Is this sad or just a fad
I know, I know, I know, it's for the best
The fun is gone, and now the party's over
I sing some songs, pretend I'm not depressed
And in the end, I hope you have your closure
Who cleans up after the afterparty
I'm messed up like the scenes we see on the big screen
I'm so done faking, straight pretending that we're grown
Just tryin' to find our way back home
Who cleans up after the afterparty
I'm so fucked like the scenes we see on the tv
I'm so done crying, shaking, and throwing up alone
Just tryin' watch the credits roll
I'm fucking sick and tired of these afterparties
(I'm so tired, babe, so just go away)
I'm fucking sick and tired of these people on me
(my head's been up in space)
I'm fucking sick and tired of these afterparties
(and I've seen it all through the alcohol)
So fucking sick and tired of these afterparties (I get up, then fall)
Fucking sick and tired of these afterparties