Lyrics who am i kidding - ghosthands

Yeah I'm awake
I'll play along, do you know where to drive
If I wanted to be someone exciting
I would try
Why do you laugh
Why do you say buckle in for the ride
And that if I do the same thing over and over
I might die

Guess I'll go out swinging
One punch and now we're spinning
Drove around the block again
Is that what you're calling new beginnings
All this energy you're killing
Bash my head in just to fit in
I hope you're happy now, goddamn
Well then who am I kidding

Well who am I kidding
A fiend of the blue light
Think this screen is my prison
Living through maps of places I'll never visit
I'll go there in spirit
Maybe wait till I don't feel so nauseous all the time
Turn to someone that I never wanna be
Throwing up my vices with a fake apology
I don't get it, let me breathe
There's nothing here to see
There's nothing here to change
Why you staring at me

Why do you care
Go out your way just enough to explain
That if I do the same thing over and over
I'm insane

Guess I'll go out swinging
One punch and now we're spinning
Drove around the block again
Is that what you're calling new beginnings
All this energy you're killing
Bash my head in just to fit in
I hope you're happy now, goddamn
Well then who am I kidding