Lyrics side note - 9tails , guccihighwaters

Sidenote, P.S., I'm not sober
It's not a part of my big plan to be older
She wanna know my secrets
Bullet with your name on it, let me be the reason
Let my brain explode
Watch 'em fly, let the memories unfold
You better bury me with gold
'Cause if not, I'mma rot all alone
Rot all alone
I stay locked in my home
I only see the fucking light
When my friends are getting stoned
I don't smoke that shit, my brain too fucked up
If I could, I would, I always seem to have the worst luck
Anxiety embedded in my bones
When I turned ten, man, I always felt alone
Nine years later, you know I'm still floating
Above the rough ocean, treading in emotions
Sipping on the potion, I plan to turn my ghost in
I will fade away, no one ever fucking knows me
Sidenote, P.S., I would go back
To the scenes I keep seeing in my flashbacks
On the nights, when I dream, it never makes sense
Cross the line and hurry back like I'm defense
Breathe, swallow air, then I dive in the deep end
Calmer underwater, love when everything is silent
I'm seeing faces even when I'm not dreaming
Tell me, are they real? I really hope that you can see them
Sidenote, P.S., I'm not sober
It's not a part of my big plan to be older
She wanna know my secrets
Bullet with your name on it, let me be the reason
Let my brain explode
Watch 'em fly, let the memories unfold
You better bury me with gold
'Cause if not, I'mma rot all alone