Lyrics kisses that create dissonance - handkerchief code

I never thought you could hurt me
But here we are
Drooling on the bathroom floor of room 203
Waiting for time to start moving again
I said I'd never let anyone take advantage of me again
My knees have been shaking so long I can't feel them
My stomach turns thinking about what you did to me
I never said yes
I never saw you that way
I thought we were just friends
I thought I could trust you
I never said yes
But I let you put your hand on my leg
And I knew I couldn't stop you
From violating me
Your strength and aggression was too much
So I closed my eyes
And just begged for you to stop
But I knew you wouldn't
And I know you picked me because I was desperate to feel anything
It lasted for hours
You'd pick me up
Then pin me down
And told me not to make a sound
And I did what you said
Cause I didn't want to die
I just wanted someone in my life
Who wouldn't fucking hurt me