Lyrics adhd - slowthai

The last one

Sick as a pig, can you help?
Tryna get a grip, fingers slip then I melt
Sittin' in a pit, only me and myself
I can't deal with the screams, only screamin' at myself (ah)

Tryna protect so I project
Deflect and they call it self-defence
Feel the pressure and we all got our reasons
Smile on the out, but inside I keep bleedin'
Fun and games 'til you gotta take the blame
And I said it was me 'cause I'd do it for my mates

Then again, would they say the same?
And it's all tongue-in-cheek, tryna sweep out the fakes
Love never felt real, the wheels won't break
They can't see the tears through the raindrops
Tough lad and I always put a face on
Told me already that leopards can't change spots

Sad songs, a sickness
The passenger always been a witness
Excalibur, incision
Goodbye, my only decision

Sad songs, a sickness
The passenger always been a witness
Excalibur, incision
Goodbye, my only decision

Overthink, sink in my seat
Eat, sleep, repeat, what you know about T?
Smoke weed only way I fall asleep
Same routine, drink 'til I can't speak
Slave to the progress
I obsess 'cause I ain't got control yet
I'm tryna fly but my wings feel broken
An eagle encaged in a closure

Lowest of lows, decomposing, I'm sober, loner
I can't be alone, why I always pick the phone up?
I beg you pick the phone up
(Beg you pick the phone up)

Sad songs, a sickness
The passenger always been a witness
Excalibur, incision
Goodbye, my only dec-

Yo
Yo, wagwan?
N-nothin', I just wanted to say, bruv
I love you, man, and I hope you're doing well
And I miss you every day you're not around
Yo, thanks for calling, blud

Feed my deficit, life I'm yet to live
Ain't no S&M, I just shake my head
You can't be my friend, living and I'm dead
Caught in Charlotte's Web, I can't feel myself

Mind complexity be the death of me
Heavy weaponry at my melon, squeezed
I got tendencies, psycho tendencies
Touch me tenderly, Heaven, let me in

I think you got amnesia ('nesia)
And your stress soon to give me alopecia ('pecia)
And I'm vexed tryna smile like Mona Lisa (smile)
Fail to exit like I ain't got a Visa