Six Years Old

My feet couldn't reach the pedals
So my father got on his knees
And used his hands to press the pedals
At the bottom of the hammond B3

6 Years old and I lied about the kool aid
I told my mama that my daddy said it was ok to drink
When my father found out he beat me with a belt of leather
Until my thighs split open and it caused my calves to bleed

So as a grown ass man
I act like a 6 year old

I act like a little ass boy
And I'm protective of all my toys
Cuz they're the only things that never judge me

That's why I act like a 6 year old
Full of imagination and wonder
But still afraid of the "Distant Thunder"

6 Years old and I'm staring at a movie screen
In a dark sanctuary shaking watching "image of the beast"

Repeated nightmares can't sleep even at 33
Thanks alot dad now I'm stuck with fucking PTSD

Now my relationships suffer and i can't live a normal life
But your philosphies daddy said it's alright to scare 'em 2 Christ

So when I'm selfish or I'm needy
Or I act like a scaredy cat
Just try to function normally
Without a grandparent mom or dad

I always felt like my brothers hated me
Although I do my best
Since I'm a bitch ass faggot
I'm the one they wish they never had

So I'm a six year old

I act like a little ass boy
And I'm very protective of my toys
Cuz they're the only things that never judge me

I'm a 6 year old
Full of imagination full of wonder
But still afraid of the "Distant Thunder"

I'm a six year old
I'm a little ass boy
And I'm protective of my toys
They're the only things that never judge me
Never judge me

I'm a six year old
A little ass boy
Protective of my toys
Cuz they're the only things that never judge me

I'm a 6 year old
Full of imagination and wonder
But still afraid of the "Distant Thunder"