paroles de chanson Suicidal Tendencies - Bizzy Crook , Love Mansuy

I lied under oath, I'm sorry to us both
Used it for pain, for the murder I wrote
'Cause your love was too perfect, I couldn't write any songs about it
I swear depression changed my life and I'd be lost without it
I treat rappers like tellin' tales in the dark
And if I find the light then that'd be the end of my art
'Cause my best material came from feeling inferior
Your lil' brother goin' to chemo should've been there with you
Instead I'm out in California, three I was younger
The floor covered in Swisher wrappers and empty rubbers
Skipping lunches, lace up was recording demos
In a one bedroom appartment [?]
How selfish of me, I'm helpless honey
Sellin' a piece of my mind for extra money
Lovin' somebody ain't never felt this funny
I'm so insane, I can't explain
My creativity sucks, I can't write without pain

Should I jump? Should I stay?
I think it's better that way, anyway
I think about [?] today
It's been a minute since I-
I've been feelin', I've been feelin' kinda wrong (for real, it's real)
It's better that way-

Maybe it's part of my karma
Maybe I shouldn't call her
Maybe it's not my fault, 'cause I'm the son of my father
We good at makin' excuses when feel guilty and bothered
10AM in the morning, I'm havin' breakfast and vodka
Where my head at? Ain't no tellin'
Long as I'm hurtin' and write about it, the record sellin'
Sacrifices, I know it so well
You was an angel to me, when I deserved Hell
It's on my head this shit is so intense
My momma goin' the to the doc, I say "how it went?"
While I'm in Cali just tryna get it to go
"This the year mom," I said that two Thanksgivings ago
I know, this shit drive me crazy, fightin' depression daily
I'm tryna sign to Eminem 'cause all these niggas shady
I miss the days when it was fun hittin' the club with AJ
Had them bottles goin' up
Girls I admired from a far started showin' love
Word in my city was "BZZY was gettin' up there"
Couple hatin' nigga tried to say I wasn't from there
But hate and love the same thing, just different perspective
I used to hit the office like I was switchin' electives
A lotta girls you niggas loved, just really my exes
I'm still in love with all of them, I'm really that selfish
Couple girls I used to write about went missin' on me
A couple married ball players and got different on me
Would you prefer to have had and lost to the never had it?
Everything seems so small from where I'm standin'

Should I jump? Should I stay?
I think it's better that way, anyway
I think about [?] today
It's been a minute since I-
I've been feelin', I've been feelin' kinda wrong (for real, it's real)
It's better that way-

You haven't been yourself lately and we're worried about you
I went by your apartment Wednesday and you
Neighbors said they haven't seen you in a week
I know you've had a rough couple months but you
Can't just shut yourself out from the world like this
It's not how it be
We just don't want you to hurt yourself