paroles de chanson Reflection - conscience

Yeah, yeah
Now we gon' run it back
Yeah we gon' run it back
Yeah, yeah
Now we gon' run it back to when i never had a dime
Back to when i couldn't rap
Shit, I could barely write a ryhme
Mama say she hate my dad but tell me we look so alike
I felt like that was bad
Wonder what goes through her mind
When she look into my eyes is she reminded everyday
'Bout the pain, 'bout the lies
'Bout what he let slip away?
So when she wanna talk i make sure i hide my face
Like to write my name in chalk just to see that shit erased
I know she doesn't feel that way
But that's the way i felt
'Cause for some fucking reason i ain't never liked myself
It's a constant problem for me i have yet to tell
But if you take my picture you could see it all too well
I tend to think the devil was to blame for how i'm feelin'
It helps to know the way you look is always God given
But I'm wishing i could just see me once within his vision
'Cause i can't help but look into the mirror
And and hear his children's opinion (fuck)
I never seen what i wanna see
I got friends but they always makin' fun of me
Say they're "joking" but the truth is accompanied
'Cause i see my reflection and it's clear why i'm ugly
My eyes, lips, nose, nothin' on me looks right
I can't sleep, Mama told me "Sweetie goodnight"
But i'm replaying people saying what i look like
Over and over inside my head, 'til i would cry!
So my insecurities and their opinions unified
And yeah my girl up and left me
Told me "MOVE ASIDE"
It started fucking with me, contemplating suicide
I was in a bad place
Thought nobody would knew i died
I never told nobody everyone had thought i'm fine
They see me smile but don't see what's going on inside
My body roamed but my mind was so unoccupied
'Cause i was plottin' with demons on which way i should stop my life
Step dad's a cop, I took his gun but couldn't find a bullet
I took a knife instead and held it to my neck to use it
I started thinking 'bout my mom and how her life i'll ruin
Dropped it, cried my eyes out and threw up (shit)
I couldn't do it
I never talked about it don't need no one's fucking attention
I'm only here to tell you now the pain will lesson and lesson
I never thought it would get better but I have a confession
It really does
You're beautiful in every reflection
You are not alone
You're beautiful
You're not alone
I'm here for you