paroles de chanson Narcissistic Love - Kfhox

I will no longer lend my love to lovers
Who are merely interested in what's between my thighs
But can't be bothered to look me in the eyes
Why would I ever accept such disdainful love?
The example I learned as a child
Could serve as some explanation I do believe
Let's observe what I have seen
And perhaps discover my reprieve
My father a man with now three girls
Thought he was only hurting himself
With his imbibements and swirls
It took me 22 years before I finally asked him
Why he kept drinking and hurting us all
His reply
I never knew I was hurting you
He never knew at all
How How could you not?
The night mom made me ask you
If I could eat dinner alone in my room
She told me
Ask your father
Only minutes after he had walked in the backdoor and said
Ann Marie I'm drunk
So instead of just being mad at you
She forced me to participate with you
Asking for your slurring permission to eat alone
Family dinners were something I was no longer interested in
Keep your food
I know all you care about is your drink anyway
But this one incident doesn't fully explain
The love I've accepted that I also disdain
Let's go back to that father daughter dance
You remember when you fell asleep on the couch
And wet your pants
And Skip and Eric tried to fill in
But that image of you passed out is what really sunk in
And then you signed the divorce papers
While mom had been committed
I always gave you credit for staying
Even though the way you almost quitted
You realized the err in your ways
And retracted the divorce in a matter of days
Maybe you realized she settled too
The day she decided to marry you
So you both stayed for 40 plus years
But all I know of love is the pain and the tears
Of loving selfish people with their own wounds to mend
So busy self medicating
To me you could not tend
So thankful I had another family to help raise me
Though the guilt that came with it
Started to phase me
And soon mom would make me choose
Which house will you be at?
And my answer always made me lose
If I picked my mom
I subjected myself to countless scary situations
If I chose their house
I'd have to worry about your suicidal ideations
Locked yourself in the bathroom when I was a child
And I tried to be the adult
To take it in stride
But I was too young and you were supposed to be my mother
The only time I was reminded of that was when I chose another
Another woman showed me what family could be
But the guilt of my upbringing
Was seemed to be all I could see
So all my life I've loved selfish men
Who can't see past themselves and certainly
Never truly see me
So thank you for these genes and this lack of love
Which feels hereditary
I am working day and night to break these chains
Because I think I might deserve more than all this pain
I might even prove worthy of love
If I could get out of my own way when push comes to shove
So I'm fight or flight
But I'm so prone to fly
But at least now you can stop asking me why