paroles de chanson Cinnamon - Nine Seven Pta

I was thinking bout 2018 the other night
I sunk my teeth inside the ego like it's overbite
Controlling, right
Acts of spite and lashing out on dead relations
It's sad to say that since then it hasn't been revelation
The way I've been got the people close to me devastated
And I attempted being forward, end up paraphrasing
Setting up some barricades and chasing a dream in which
This all okay, but I don't wanna cause more harm
I'm not a sadist
I got demons of mine that I need to fucking face
Lost inside this liquor, the room is spinning, my heart is racing
Social 'vent incarceration, barely in tact
And I cant make decisions pivotal to self, but that's not what I'm saying
I've been enabling hope cuz I cannot set a boundary
I lost respect from my friends, I've barely been sleeping soundly
Context don't matter, the liquor, I gotta face surroundings
I did this all to myself because I'm a fucking clown

The acts of my movement, I cant e'en excuse it
My past was in ruthless, now I really blew it
Let's give a hand to the ones who just see it through
Who never held a loose end or truly withheld a truth
Cuz you don't know the problem until it catch up to you
Cuz you just held the bottle, you never really reduced
And now you're stuck with broken hearts of the people who thought they knew
That you had care in heart, you're fair, and you're always a decent dude
Now the truth protruded
And you thought that this would be fixed with music
And you just tried to run away like a little nuisance
I know you won't get specific because you'll only boost it
The honesty of your pen is turning fucking abusive
The focus on you, the eyes are on you
And you could beat around it acting like theres something that suits
Your little narrative of "woe is me" and god I am doomed
Or you could be a decent human and decide what to do

Look
I thought I had a chance to find the norm
I thought I had a chance to find the door that brought me more
I thought I had a chance to settle the dust for the score
And give the love to all the ones that I love to the core
Then I had some hope but I couldn't find a light to the candle that I hold
But whose fault is it? Thats mine, not yours
Had to take some days to think it over
I haven't been to fair anybody if its full disclosure
These roots are in manipulation on my behalf
Settled with my terms because I couldn't chill like decaf
Couldn't think outside of me cuz I was off like 3 blasts
Never an excuse to treat a person like they're meaningless
Damn
I don't know where to go from here
But I just want the best for all just when the coast is clear
My spice is cinnamon, it's bitter to all I'm near
To all who with me I'm holding you near and dear
Im sorry