Текст песни so... WHICH ONE IS IT?!? - Merc!

If I don't speak, I mess up
If I do speak, I mess up
You make not wanna give you love
Instructions not clear, I am not dumb

Emotions refuse to be tamed
Is this the "do as I say" game?
But if I choose either one
Both are never getting it done

Another traumatic day, what is there to say?
My demons are my friends at night
They never bother me at times
When nightmares forsee the future
Everyone's trying to be my tutor
And I'm one for psychology
But people don't allow me to be me

Welcome to the brain, for your complete fascination
It'll fuck your life up, isn't that fun?
But the thing's that you'll tell no one
Your mind games are quite clear from your past
Trauma's no fun
But if you thought you proved a point, I am done

And if I proved you a point
Don't see me as your toy
Is this what it's gonna be?
'Cause if we switched bodies
Will you know in my eyes, what it's like to be me?

If you know what I've been through
Which half would you like to get? One or two?
I don't mean to be rude
But it's time that I had enough, keep the mouth chewed

How in the world could you ever tell me
What it's like, oh for one
You weren't there, you can't see what I see
If I'm the one who should follow the orders
Maybe if you weren't so confusing, I could be done

So which is it? Which is it? (They told me life was fun)
Which is it? Which is it? (Can you be specific?)
Don't expect me to change to follow your mistaken ways
You know you're wrong, but you silence those who prove it

How in the world am I supposed to keep going
But no one takes care when I need it, so it always has been me
And that's okay, didn't they say to be independent?
You can't have more than one meaning
So add the context (but you're still against me)

If I fuck it up, mess it up
It's alright to know that my emotions are valid? (Hm...)
But how is it that possible
To say they gotta go when my support isn't needed? (to you)

Why do those who are never present at all
Can say when things are true or false? (Mmm...)
But when I talk, big or small it's the-
"Why do you act this way at all?" (oh)

How in the world could you ever tell me
What it's like, oh for one
You weren't there, you can't see what I see
If I'm the one who should follow the orders
Maybe if you weren't so confusing, I could be done

So which is it? Which is it? (They told me life was fun)
Which is it? Which is it? (Can you be specific?)
Don't expect me to change to follow your mistaken ways
You know you're wrong, but you silence those who prove it

If you want to be me, trust me, please take that back
Dysphoria, is it me or the world
Why can't I do this, if your free wills' totally hypocritical
I don't care if it's logic, that isn't the problem
The problem is that I'm always getting pushed to the edge

Rant to me about your trauma, because it isn't locked up
I'm in the stage, I will blow up, don't think that you could force me to be tough
If I'm so young, why did the world decide to hurt me?
But I'm wrong to cause others pain? What more could you want from me?

Ugh, I'm sick and tired of those who run
To the one who says all the false evidence
To change when I say my words for one
Then they go change the system
To auto-correct it when nobody cared- (are you dumb?)
Then to somehow change into a rant
Do you think I'm the one to stay here? No I can't

Are you finally done? (Uh-huh)
Babe, I'm already gone (Uh-huh)
Think you can hurt me? (Nuh-uh)
I've made my way to dream (Mmm-hm)
So the question to the choices are no
And if there are no further questions, I'm gonna go!

How in the world could you ever tell me
What it's like, oh for one
You weren't there, you can't see what I see
If I'm the one who should follow the orders
Maybe if you weren't so confusing, I could be done

So which is it? Which is it? (They told me life was fun)
Which is it? Which is it? (Can you be specific?)
Don't expect me to change to follow your mistaken ways
You know you're wrong, but you silence those who prove it

(Ooh woah)
(Hah)
(Hah, hah, hah, hah, hah!)
(Okay, we're done, let's go)