Текст песни MY SHADOW - Midas

Tryna find time for myself
Cause I'm feeling like a burden
Like I was for someone else
Everybody feels ill
From the chemicals
We spill
Loves a bitch
It made me kill a part of me had to rebuild
"Phil, chill man"
Nah nigga
I've been on my grind
Like a grater
But still I ain't seeing cheddar
But I keep getting better
For my mental
That can heal it
I'm anxious
My mind starts to go in spirals like a helix

Still looking my peace of mind
Should I smoke nicotine
Some weed
While looking at myself
Thinking bout who I've been
Now everybody knows
How to stay in control
But me I lost the game
Lucy took on my soul
Everyone got woes
Every life is cold
See it in my dad eyes
He so tired
Work ethic a foe
I need to provide
Need to be there for all of my folks
But who gon be praying for me
When the lowest I'm below

Thats the way it goes
You get hurt and then you grow
But it's following me like a shadow
I cannot oppose
Talk to hoes
Get new clothes
It don't get rid of my lows
I don't mean to gloat
I just wanna be back in control
I just wanna feel better
I always gotta do more
Always tryna beat my old self
I won't do it anymore
I don't need to be the past
I'll go where the wind blows
Live moved too fast
And I moved too slow slow

Pour that shit in your cup
You don't wanna have to be
Someone else
It's never enough
Talking bout lust
Gluttony
And envy
Things that made you fall in love
Now you get followed by hatred
Everything you rose above
Thinking bout unwritten laws
Everything that was the cause
Everytime that you got crossed
By your people causing loss
And it follows you around
I can see it in your heart

Hourglasses got me stressing
I am not a prophet
I can't walk on water but Ima lay on it
Don't even know where I'll go
I guess I need time but Ima stay honest
Oh no
The feelings back and it just won't go
I know some care for me but things changed
And feel strange
That's the way it goes

Took a lot of time
For the puss to go away
Had to hit the buzzer beater clutch
Or fade away
Took a lot of hits
But I guess I was pussy though
Guess you made your point
When I fumbled
And kept calling your phone
Saw it a weakness
I do too
I killed that part of me
There ain't gon be no round two
I beat my enemies
There's only me to beat too
My mind running in circles
I guess I'll need some new shoes
Now
You do all the talking
You do all the planning
You do the folding yourself
In half
To see her
You do the forgiveness
You do all the patience
You do the putting your pride aside
You be the leader

On my own
Well I think
Things in my mind I can't see
They follow me oh
No I can't change too much
I can't lose myself
In the floods

Like I said in the past
Never running out of gas
Things I did I can't believe
But I'll forgive myself at last
Yeah I'll kill the fucking game
And never extinguish my flame nigga
In November I was going insane nigga
Till I made the decision to not stay in my lane nigga
Couldn't stay a lame nigga
Couldn't stay the same
Cause these demons they followed me
Like a shadow and caused me pain
But I matured
And soon they all will know the name nigga

Pour that shit in your cup
You don't wanna have to be
Someone else
It's never enough
Talking bout lust
Gluttony
And envy
Things that made you fall in love
Now you get followed by hatred
Everything you rose above
Thinking bout unwritten laws
Everything that was the cause
Everytime that you got crossed
By your people causing loss
And it follows you around
I can see it in your heart

Hourglasses got me stressing
I am not a prophet
I can't walk on water but Ima lay on it
Don't even know where I'll go
I guess I need time but Ima stay honest
Oh no
The feelings back and it just won't go
I know some care for me but things changed
And feel strange
That's the way it goes