Am I Truly Alone

What does it mean to be all alone
I've been afraid when I go ghost they'll express love in ways i'll never know
All of these feelings they've been scared to demonstrate and show
Got me thinking am I truly alone
Only pops I've ever had was those WIC days
Only friends I've ever made was when I was paid
I didn't know where to start to make ends meet
I left the heartbreak and what remains is so petite

Conflicted I determined the problem will reside within me
My mental state would always leak to those within my reach
Way too focused on a future I couldn't achieve
And as a reminder branded myself with ink
Nomadic visionary but I swear I've been afraid
Cause even tho I left the heartbreak what if i can't change
Scared if I remove the mask these tears will pour the same
I'm worried I'll retrace the footprints that I've made
I never wanted friends only wanted brothers till I reach 6 feet
So why'd you go and peace me instead of trying peace me
Why'd you go deceive me and move so discreetly
Never been hard to reach but you refuse to believe me
Then you went and forced mutuals to choose a side that wasn't mine
All the lies you told got me thinking was this always on you mind
I'll never understand no rosetta for those Parseltongue lies

What does it mean to be all alone
I've been afraid when I go ghost they'll express love in ways i'll never know
All of these feelings they've been scared to demonstrate and show
Got me thinking am I truly alone
Only pops I've ever had was those WIC days
Only friends I've ever made was when I was paid
I didn't know where to start to make ends meet
I left the heartbreak and what remains is so petite