Nomad

Because I ran away
All alone
I couldn't live like that no more
I couldn't reminisce about it no more
I couldn't handle my heart ignored

I just wanna wake up from this nightmare
I just wanna wake up & see you right there
Scars on my arm from the times I pinched that
Took me too long to realize we'll never get back
Maybe one conversation is all we need
Cause all this miscommunication we share runs deep
Aye we was oceanside while the sun depleted it's battery
Still wear the chain to contain my sanity
But i'll leave you behind
I swear I gotta grow
I'm terrified of the world
But I gotta go
I took the first step & finally left the Heartbreak Motel
More like I burned it down I won't return to what I felt
Now I promised to myself I won't fall in love again
Yea I rather stay alone how I was born is how i'll end
So i'll scream fuck that
Fuck love
Fuck everything that has to do with us

Cause I ran away
All alone
I couldn't live like that no more
I couldn't reminisce about it no more
I couldn't handle my heart ignored

I left it all behind so no longer will I go cry about it
Heart went up in flames a red sky became a product of it
Killed the younger me & I began to resurrect
Heartbreak Motel was something branded on the flesh
Trapped inside my mind so I destroyed it from the inside
Once it all fell apart I became buried alive
Too much pressure from my past I almost gave in to the weight
Then from amidst the rubble a rose just began to take its shape
I was reaching out for help I was crying out for years
Nobody ever came I learned to water myself with my tears
So now I stay alone & never commit to a place
I swear I touch the ground light I learned to move without a trace
But I stumble when I question did I leave or did I lose her
Am I running from my past or running towards my future
Either way I gotta stay myself until the end
No more looking back no more thinking ohhh

That I ran away
All alone
I couldn't live like that no more
I couldn't reminisce about it no more
I couldn't handle my heart ignored