Текст песни at the point of no return. - 4ria

When darkness starts to give way to a sunrise and I'm wide awake
I try make some sense of the feeling, peeling desire away
I'm tired of days
With too little sunshine
And too much shade, I may
Aspire for a messiah
Higher up on the hill, I lay
Border on the edge of artist and jester
Still carrying
Carnage, careful, I'm burying
Stars I shot, just a scary glimpse
With a fit that is all white, but Aria's not Aryan
All these thoughts I'm airing out
Can't catch my breath
I'm staring out the window of this half way house
I'm half way down
My downward spiral
Like my idols
This path may excite all of my rivals
Till they're victims of my visions
That I stifled with these rhythms
Cycles of my sick condition
Recycles this shit depression
I'm psycho, no second guessing
With this slight discretion
I've invested years and months to dream this up
With a new bright expression
This scene is fucked
This mic is strengthened by inflections
Kept in the confines of my mind
I can't find a semblance
Of a sense of any meaning
Skeptical, but since I'm leaning
Towards hope, I've been misreading
Horoscopes I've been receiving
Just to cope and keep on dreaming
Too deep, I'm sick of being
Horrid, fuck a moral code
And any of my inner feelings
I've considered leaving
Just to ghost you
Seeming bored
Still sick, revealing stored up bitterness and lack of healing
Any willing participant will dismiss this veiling
That I'm hailing as expired
Sing me to sleep like a canary
I'm far from tired

I build and I climb
Up these hills at night
Try to touch the sky
But I fall back and I decline
I built me a shrine
Of daydreams and some lies
That may seem out of reach
But it's the way that I get by
I build and I climb
Up these hills at night
Try to touch the sky
But I fall back and I decline
I built me a shrine
Of daydreams and some lies
That may seem out of reach
But it's the way that I get by

Shallow, despite what you plea
That's just life at its steepest
Air my lungs out at the thought
Of who you'd rather go sleep with
This heart of glass you kept captive
Shattered this Pisces to pieces
Gather my thoughts like I'm sweeping shards off the facts
Ive been keepin' my eyes
Set on direction
Though my perception is weakened
All that's set and what's finished
Left me these remnants of secrets
Ruminate on what grief even gets me
Tweaking, I eat less
So I just feed off delusion
Until my face becomes beet red
Bite the bullet
Beauty's illusion mimics figments of wishful times
My heart and mind stay misaligned
But these divine, conflicted times
Restrict my eyes from distant lies
That been described as hives
Inflict my pride with strides
I can't deny this vigorous regimen
Lead me to vent and binge
On potent pills from the medicine cabinet
Ever since, it's been habit to have a pinch
I've been itching
Risks existing, rather hinge
My jaws on these tablets
Till Withdrawals
Off the wall, I'm bat shit
Find resolve in a casket
I'm a monster
I'm a freak
I'm unwanted
Watch me bleed all of these dreams
Till I conjure enough courage to feel redeemed
And all these stains may close in on my face
When she told me all the ways I coped won't ever kill the pain
In the end, I'll feel the same and forced to stay
And forced to blame myself for all this shame remains
It feels like tryna dry my eyes out in the pouring rain
This fucking story frame is void of range
And I don't think there's much of anything else more to say
This fucking story frame is void of range
And I don't think there's much of anything else more to say
This fucking story frame is void of range
And I don't think there's much of anything else more to say

I build and I climb
Up these hills at night
Try to touch the sky
But I fall back and I decline
I built me a shrine
Of daydreams and some lies
That may seem out of reach
But it's the way that I get by
I build and I climb
Up these hills at night
Try to touch the sky
But I fall back and I decline
I built me a shrine
Of daydreams and some lies
That may seem out of reach
But it's the way that I get by