Текст песни My Life (feat. Rebekah Young) - Afari

Yeah, it's my life, in my own words I guess
I've got a thousand words so let me paint a picture
And if you're feeling hopeless this may just sound familiar
When the man in the mirror isn't who you wanna be
Your insecurity's eating you killing your self-esteem
Always seem to feel alone and the pain is taking hold
'Cause you're trapped in your own mind and there's no place for you to go
And you don't know how to talk about the struggles that you're facing
You don't have many friends and you really don't know how to make 'em
And the few that you do have you just feel don't really know you
'Cause you built up walls inside with doors that you never open
With the controller in your home it's only self-preservation
Focusing solely on living up to expectations
A threat in oppression where the weapon's intimidation
You're timid and within you is building a sense of indignation
Excessively self-effacing, ain't no place for expression
When that part of yourself is kept effectively in suppression

I can't let my guard down even if I tried
I've been having bad dreams keeping me up at night
My nightmares, they come to life
I'm dying inside and I'm tired of this fight

Then you embrace the prison, there's no escaping the sentence
When that cage is a safe place to stay away from a menace
Restraining you from chasing the dream that you neglected
But knew the fears you'd have to face so you elected to reject it
None knew what's on my mind despite they knew it was clever
When from its place of contentment, I fell away from attendance
Mental health developing a negative progression
And I kept it to myself, I was conditioned for discretion
Every night was restless, I slept better in my lectures
Then eventually I reached out desperately from depression
Do I really have a purpose? Am I certain? Am I worthless?
Can I escape this hurting? When I cried out through the questions
Heaven's intervention amended my direction
Altering my trajectory and correcting my perceptions
A total surrender, God answered all my prayers
Through the questions there's no question He was there

I can't let my guard down even if I tried
I've been having bad dreams keeping me up at night
My nightmares, they come to life
I'm dying inside and I'm tired of this fight

There's no question that He cared although I was in despair
When it seemed He was nowhere He was counting every tear
And as I drew in closer, He showed me He was near
And He put me here for a reason that much at least became clear
I was losing hold of hope, 'cause I just couldn't see
But little did I know that He was holding onto me
Now embracing the unknown who'd have known I could make it here
Few years ago, if you'd have shown me this, I'd have walked away in fear
Which I had done before, before I reached my teens
When I threw away my lyrics, they could never be retrieved
Allowed a person that I knew would disapprove to kill my dreams
But I don't need your approval, I stand on my own two feet
And I began to do it still carrying unforgiveness
Only in hindsight I recognize just how it hindered
The friction within still afflicted my system
Its deposition was difficult despite a forgiving disposition
This is my life, this is not a work of fiction
Through my lyrics, I try to convey a relatable depiction
I'm still fighting my own battles, I'm still battling with me
Battles in my mind but now I'm fighting 'cause I'm free
Free to release what I keep bottled up inside
And let my light shine brighter now the fire's reignited
And use it to inspire so you unearth what's within you
That's how the story begins, now let the journey continue