Текст песни Have you ever? - BENADRYL

I start a new song every day
But I never finish
I talk to my family every day
But they never listen
I'm just tryna survive
But I'm really in this
I'm just tryna get clean
But I'm just wishin
Have you ever lost a friend
To the needle or the pipe
They alive in the day
But they dead by the night

I'm just tryna make this cash
I'm just tryna get out
I'm just tryna make it fast
Put it to the side
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die
Watch my cash burn
I guess I'll never learn
They won't burry me
I'll be put in an urn
I guess I'm just cursed
All I feel is hurt
I ain't got friends
I just got family
My girl wants me to be okay
But I'm dope sick every day

Out of serotonin
But I'm out of tears
Lost to many friends
Over all the years
Get rid of my depression
Turn into aggression
Go and hit a lick
Make that money quick
Spend it all on dumb shit
Paranoid from assumptions
Easy to snap
Known for eruptions
Been stabbed in the back
Known for not trustin

I always stay hustling but I'm a drug addict
So I always struggling cuz of these habits
I'm not bangin but I'm with my gang
Fuck with one and we get to bustin
Bad vocab so I'm always cussin
I'm a mentally unstable white kid
So I'm always high on Vicodin
I'll stay up grippin my gun
I think I'm going insane this ain't no fun
Always thinking but I'm so numb
Put the cash in the bulb and watch it burn
This is the West Virginian curse
Shake and bake in the school bathroom
Pills in siblings pockets
Crystals sucked in the vacuum
I think I fucking lost it

I hear voices at night
Why is my chest so tight
My body is so numb
My body is so light
I was on fire like a commit
But it's not me that's on fire
I really might vomit
And I'm seeing double
Where's my bubble
I'm all out of cash
I'm in trouble
I gotta hustle

Have you ever lost a friend
To the needle or the pipe
Alive in the day
But they dead by the night

Have you ever lost a friend
To the needle or the pipe
Almost heaven by the day
Almost hell by the night

I'm ready but I'm Hazy
I'm Sweaty and I'm shaky

He's foaming out his mouth
Lookin like he got rabies

Have you ever lost a friend
To the needle or the pipe
Alive in the day
But they dead by the night

Have you ever lost a friend
To the needle or the pipe
Almost heaven by the day
Almost hell by the night