Текст песни Integrity - Daniel Son

Let me start at the start, I wrote these valentine's bars
Including some about Tinder a year and a half ago
Accused of misogyny, like don't make me laugh
Just never thought someone on a dating app could take my heart, it was
Caught plenty of attraction but
Weren't swiping 'til the king was done rapping
Matched this blonde. Nice eyes. Out my league. Mad ting
Benevolent, intelligent, eloquent, everything
That I was looking for at the time and she soon let me in
Few weeks, we're dating, few more, I'm staying
Writing bars about her and the way she's breathtaking
Stay up late then cuddling and lay-in in the AM
A breath of fresh air in such a polluted fragrance
Well spoken, she taught me things I didn't know and
She really was a teacher so it shows but
A few hold ups and set backs is the norm, right
About a month in and I'm bout to walk
I was set to link her on the Saturday, she went back to ends
Hit up fam and friends to catch up and relax but then
But then suddenly she's airing me
But she's a good girl, must be the signal's scarcity
She finally messages like: Yo, I'm at a festival
I know you're waiting 'round but how's tomorrow instead for you
I was like: Kinda peak, kinda busy, don't worry
She dropped everything and said she's coming on home to me
Dropped everything, yeah consuming them drugs
She said coming back's what she need to do 'cause she love me
And boy I've never seen such a beautiful ugly
Pilled out her brain, calling me her ex's name
Deep down knowing things would never be the same
I guess at the time ya don't see the signs, word to Blade, so she
Begged for me back. I was on anti-depressants and that
I guess I needed suttin else to help me relax
And she preyed on my insecurities bruv
Keep up, she was so desperate to be loved
Psychology teacher
Funny though, what did psychology teach her
Other than wanting to make others wanting and need her
And yeah, I gave her the best part of a year
Never really lost my shit. Never put my hands on her
Went to walk once or twice - she made it intangible
Every morning and night, I told her she was beautiful
While everything was charged to my bank card as usual
Bring her round my friends, but only ever gang 'til the end
One or two would flirt but that was just them
And I'm comfy in my own skin. Comfy with my people round
Rarely feeling doubt 'cause the trust supersedes it now
March just gone, shot the Pat Phelan video
She was like yo, best be no women in it though
Said I'm professional whenever spitting or hitting shows
And you're the only one my hearts for, as if you didn't know
Next day I woke up and Grandma had passed away
That was Dad's ma... rah it caused my damn heart to break
The only person in my life to never have a pop at me
So I just need my girl and my family round obviously
Spent a couple days with them, the daze I'm in is growing
But live inside my head so there was no ways of showing
Planned to see Pharoahe at the forum on the Thursday
Gassed cause I'm the biggest fan and I was hitting with the gang
So she's on half term. Finished at 1
Out drinking with her work pals, living it up
And it's bless, yeah we're gonna link when I'm done
Had two pints with my guy then a single of rum
It's time to bounce though, cause we're meeting the others soon
Then I get a drunk text, babe I'm gonna come with you
I was like nah babe you gotta go home now
She was like I'm already here but it's sold out
In my head I'm like, why's she's bugging again and
Why's she get so drunk and gotta muster attention
My man's like yo, I understand it ain't fair Dan
We get there, she's flirting, surrounded by bare man
These times I ain't blazing skunk, I'm correct
These times I ain't even drunk or depressed
But when I saw how she was moving, my heart sunk in my chest
Feeling bus up off a couple of slugs from a tech
Like why you doing this? It's hardly the place
She said I'm here for you and laughed in my face
My man pulled me back cause he could see that I was wound up
Like Dan, come we go, I'll fucking leave with you now bruv
All while the 6 others ain't saying shit
And my girls still with a group of man like I ain't exist
I wasn't trying to incite a war
By asking why she's acting like a whore off a pint or 4
Cause this could be the final straw I beg you don't give it up
As she flirts with the man she just bought a ticket off
Shaking... tearful... feeling close to written off
Cause this was love, not just a brudda tryna get her knickers off
Head's a car crash I mean, it's a tragedy
Could've swung but instead I turned my fucking back to leave
Taxi please, back to her flat then I put back the keys
Feeling somebody was stabbing me, I was a casualty
Back to yard, I have to sleep. Everybody's on my line
She's screwing like, yo, everybody's on my side
You're a dickhead, they all say you don't deserve my time
As if I ain't already feeling like this worthless guy
And like I knew that, I jumped in the group chat
Like keep that same energy, see me and be backing it
Everyone's like Dan, you're fam, she's just chatting shit
Then I deleted every text, chat and call like that was it
Next day she's blowing up my phone again
Telling me she's sorry, but the drinking unfolded and
She knows she's got a problem and she's sorry for her actions
I said my minds made up and sent her packing
Then went to Limerick to escape from it
Only for a week but I wish that I had stayed a bit
It's the place my forefathers originated and
I kinda felt closer to the God I'll never say exists
Came back, cremated Grandma
Found out my Mum's Dad's got skin cancer
Suttin's gotta give fam, this load'll make me get wham
But Karma's only round to a point like a wigwam. Shit fam
By the third week of separation
I've seen 4 of them man and they ain't mentioned a thing
Even asked one of them if she went home alone
He said bro, I don't know the wave I rode was phenomenal
Few days later asked my other man what's the craic
He said she partied all night then 2 went back to her flat
Asked him if that's acceptable
He said never, but you deserve the fucking truth so that's what I'ma tell to you
So I phoned one of them 'cause I know he can chat to me
Said I love you to death, I just need some clarity
He was like, you're paranoid, all I did was have a joint
Then left my man there, you got a problem then get at your boy
Stressing it was innocent, I called this other dickhead and
He can't even answer the phone, I'm feeling militant
But I'ma handle it, I'm a big man for these cancerous
Actions, I refuse to get mad from it
So I phoned to speak with her, said it's only brief
But I need some answers that I feel I could be owed at least
And after everything we've been through
I hope if anyone is gonna be transparent with me, it's you
She said they went in. Drinking all my drink in the fridge
The man I just spoke to, smoked and was licked
Stayed for a bit but left for the hotel when
He clocked he was blocking all this sexual tension
And my man I been friends with since I moved to Kent
That's 18 years, yeah I went to primary school with him
Was making his move, now I see it like a movie and
The truly fucked thing is these words don't even do me in
Imagining a man I regarded as a brother
As a lover to my lover fucking it without a rubber
And even though I'd had enough of her the next day
That gut feeling's way stronger than emotions I can muster
I'd ask em if they loved it but they musta
In the morning he was in her bed and they discussed it
She says she said "we're disgusting
People, the fuck did we think? Dan's been through enough shit." My man's like fuck it
Here's what's gonna happen and it's final, alright
Keep your mouth shut, cause he ain't gonna find out, it's fine
And me and my other man are straight lie til we die
But I'm out, so the others can come and find me outside
So everyone had knowledge
Neglected to tell me a thing or was dishonest
This my social circle that I've kept for several years
And it's mad cause I can't even be mad or shed a tear
I'm just feeling like what led me here, I'm a prick
I got tunes shouting out their fucking names, that's the click
That's the gang. That's the fam. That's that ride to abyss
Take a knife to the ribs for my guys - now I'm sick
In two minds, do I reply with my fists
Genesis Elijah says "kill 'em with kindness", that's it
And that's why I'm here. and I'm rhyming on this
And I've cut the cancer out. I'm just minding my biz
I don't want your sympathy. I don't want nuttin
Don't know if I could trust the place it came from had love in
But one love to Mumzy. Her words kept me up and
Now I'll keep my head high and my integrity can flourish. Fuck it