Текст песни Substance Abuse (Based On a True Story) - Demitrius 2x

We all think
That we're so strong
Until I look around
And see my downfalls
Yeah uhh whoo
Only God knows
Why I need something
(Anything)
To make this life work

And I was so sure
Like shells at the seashore
But wait pause
These future seconds
Might get hardcore
And I never did the hard though
Just wasn't my speed
You get it
(Yeah, yeah)
Just wasn't my speed
I was afraid to crash off an altered course
That was warped and often cursed
Despite my moves I still despised
My soul denies no compromise
Desensitized, I customized My own disguise
Like fuck those guys
Supplies is high
To my surprise
I'm still alive
(Yeah)
And no narcan ever touched my flesh
And I still could've passed those tests
But there was weeks
I never slept
Depressed that I lost weight
So I never ate before eight
Or after nine
My clouds crowds crown
Came with bolos and loud
I respect but wouldn't glorify my past
No regrets or takebacks
Flashbacks when I was on my ass
And I know that some weren't proud of me
But fuck the world
I think it's time for that apology

We all think
That we're so strong
Until I look around
And see my downfalls

I'm a man
I make mistakes
But can't replace
What's really blank
The time was there
My choice was rare
My prayers ain't go nowhere
I must admit I like the thrills
But not the mystery of pills
The overdose was overkill
Never change the way I feel
Maybe the way I think
Or how much I really cared
So God please
If I was ever sober
Then just take me back there
Yeah I know
My life was spared
So I'm wondering the reasons
Because we had the same plug
But little Doug
Ain't fucking breathing
Vague memories
Hi-Siding with my conscious
Never mind the progress
When your next
Move, move, move
You better watch it
More than skeletons and bus vouchers
In my closet babe
Normally I smoke a blunt
To these discoveries
But I chose recovery
So help me scream victory
Can you picture me rolling

Yeah uhh whoo
Only God knows
Why I need something
Anything
To make this life work

I thank y'all for listening
And that's straight from the bottom
Because me keeping it so raw
With y'all
Is forcing me to keep it
Three times as funky
With myself
And that's real
Because denial is real
Suicide is real
And sometimes
This bitch named curiosity
Yeah she's real too
From my struggle to yours
If you get it
Peace