Текст песни Smile - Dynem

I'm sorry you resent me
I'm sorry that I'm empty
I'm sorry there ain't
Nothin' you can do
That could protect me
From the way I view myself
When I'm alone and I'm reflecting
I'm sorry I say sorry so much
Can you forgive me

Today I don't even wanna be alive
I woke up in bed on the wrong side
I question if death would free my mind
Or just lock it in the grave
With me paralyzed
Ima stranger in my skeleton
Comfort is irrelevant
I am in my element
Endangered by the hell I'm in
Happiness is somethin'
I don't trust myself to feel again
And agony has held me
Ever since I fell in it
Deeper I get the more upset
I become with the way things get left
I'm the one who's stuck with a joint mess
They avoid to address like a bounced check
Need a boost in morale
But I'm depressed
So I can't come out cause
I'm too stressed
Maybe if somebody I met
Took some of this on
I could just let
Some of this go

If I got rest
There's a lot more people
I would effect
Don't flourish cause I'm
Burnin' up at both ends
Mentally shaky
Nonsense
Stuff clogs my head
Get a pipe wrench
Tighten the knob
So I might step
Out of this box
Into my zen
I wanna find calm
Gotta vice grip
Violent
Can't move on
I tried it
My guess
I'm set

In my ways
I'm detained then
I'm dragged back in
My misery inside a cage
That takes my breath from me
I suffocate
Pent up rage is
Stacked up on my chest
As life's choked out of me
I gasp then look for light
Sadly seen
My shadow dances at my feet

Don't tell me to smile
Don't tell me I'm a child
Who I was at five years old
Has been dead for a while
Don't tell me to smile
Don't discount the trials
I was facing at an early age
The hatred was compiled

Don't tell me to smile
Don't tell me I'm a child
Ima shadow of the fantasy
That shattered on the tile
Don't tell me to smile
Don't discount the trials
If I hide from everybody
They can't sink in my denial

Yeah
Imagine there's a new face
Every time you change grades
Dylan meet your babysitter
Me
I'll be out late
Most nights I would
Wander through the house
While the adults played
Shouldn't someone be in here
In case the kid goes irate
How come
He doesn't talk to anybody
At them ballgames
He sits where no one else is
Mom
Not beside his teammates
He don't wanna play he hates it
Anger issues
Oh great
Take the bat away and make him
Get his crooked head straight
Now there's no escape
From the valley
Snip the bike chain
Put him on restriction parents
Ground him til he learns grace
Why's he in that subdivision
Give his time out an extension
Keep him in the kennel
So there ain't a need for supervision

He's seven
I would say he's self sufficient
You stay on the porch
He's fine
Look at what his mind invented
A figment of imagination
For the times he's unattended
Stuck inside a box because
His guardians are inattentive
Pun intended

Don't tell me to smile
Don't tell me I'm a child
Who I was at five years old
Has been dead for a while
Don't tell me to smile
Don't discount the trials
I was facing at an early age
The hatred was compiled

Don't tell me to smile
Don't tell me I'm a child
Ima shadow of the fantasy
That shattered on the tile
Don't tell me to smile
Don't discount the trials
If I hide from everybody
They can't sink in my denial

You're so intense
Give yourself a break
I can't
My imaginary friend won't quit
Screamin' my mistakes
Til I admit I'm out of reasons
I should live
I would give anything to feel
Something less hollow than
This pit
I wallow in the creases
That have opened on my skin
These figurative slits
I tried closing with a pen
I soon realized this accountability
Depends on my transparency
Disclosing all my sins
I'm alone because I'm broken
And I told you that I am