Текст песни Pretending - Gates

I made promises not worth keeping
Spoke in lies that I don't believe in
Then when there was nothing left to say
I would go on anyway

Loaned my love to a common thief and
Made my peace with the wrong diseases
Wondering like a wide-eyed memory
Why I still can't walk away

Left to think in a foreign accent
Stolen words and adopted habits
All the pains that were never even mine
So I could imagine your life
Led to light that had long been dying
I don't know why I even try when
All along it would never cross my mind
That I was pretending you were right

Buried deep like a darkest secret
Covered up 'til I couldn't see it
When there was no place left that I could hide
I'd erase and overwrite

Brought along on a borrowed errand
Out for blood in an isle left barren
There was nothing left for me to find
That was even worth my time

Left to think in a foreign accent
Stolen words and adopted habits
All the pains that were never even mine
So I could imagine your life
Led to light that had long been dying
I don't know why I even try when
All along it would never cross my mind
That I was pretending you were right

So why die when it's not my sword to fall on
And why try when I'm right where I belong

I made promises not worth keeping
Spoke in lies that I don't believe in
All the pain that was never even mine
So I could imagine our life
Born of blood and devoid of meaning
All the things I could never be with
All the love left leaning on the lie
The lie

And I've resigned
'Cause I'm right where I belong