Текст песни The Unfortunate Mess - Gridlockd

I'm spending too much time, worrying bout the things that I can't control
Needle in my arm full of flecainide
While I'm Thinking to myself do I still have time?
And there's things that I wanna do
Got a lot of dreams that I wanted true
Thinking to myself "It's a broken dream"
Might just end up in a hearse while I'm still a teen
And I'm sorry if I did you wrong
Reflecting on my sins while I write these songs
Know that I'm a kid tryna right my wrongs
Got a list that I can read but it'll go on and on and on
I know I wanna do it all, the singing and the rapping all the things involved
Shitting on the ones that that pray that Ima fall
But I'm lying in the ward feeling like a fraud and all

There's so many fucking times I wish I ain't who I am
To think my life is a mess
Such an unfortunate mess
And there's so many fucking ways how I think I'm gonna end
To think how I'm gonna end
Such an unfortunate mess
And there's so many fucking times I wish I ain't who I am
To think my life is a mess
Such an unfortunate mess
And there's so many fucking ways how I think I'm gonna end
To think how I'm gonna end
Such an unfortunate mess

These nights so cold like the winter
Half past 12 on my bed tryna reason
Scared that Ima go if I fall asleep
But awake I overthink and I start to trip
And I, know that I need to talk
So I'm writing and I'm singing cos it helps me cope
And I don't wanna stay I'll be moving on
So I'm praying that I'll go, I'll go on and on and on
These nights so cold like the winter
Half past 12 on my bed tryna reason
Scared that Ima go if I fall asleep
But awake I overthink and I start to trip
And I, know that I need to talk
So I'm writing and I'm singing cos it helps me cope
And I don't wanna stay I'll be moving on
So I'm praying that I'll go, I'll go on and on and on

Is this the end?
Is this all I am?
Got all these visions stuck in my head
Watching these nightmares over again
Demons and Angels fight in my head
But I'm the one that's losing instead

There's so many fucking times I wish I ain't who I am
To think my life is a mess
Such an unfortunate mess
And there's so many fucking ways how I think I'm gonna end
To think how I'm gonna end
Such an unfortunate mess
And there's so many fucking times I wish I ain't who I am
To think my life is a mess
Such an unfortunate mess
And there's so many fucking ways how I think I'm gonna end
To think how I'm gonna end
Such an unfortunate mess

These nights so cold like the winter
Half past 12 on my bed tryna reason
Scared that Ima go if I fall asleep
But awake I overthink and I start to trip
And I, know that I need to talk
So I'm writing and I'm singing cos it helps me cope
And I don't wanna stay I'll be moving on
So I'm praying that I'll go, I'll go on and on and on
These nights so cold like the winter
Half past 12 on my bed tryna reason
Scared that Ima go if I fall asleep
But awake I overthink and I start to trip
And I, know that I need to talk
So I'm writing and I'm singing cos it helps me cope
And I don't wanna stay I'll be moving on
So I'm praying that I'll go, I'll go on and on and on