Текст песни Fire - Hostage

I'm wasting energy that I don't have
Trying to reinstall my faith
In a life that never seemed so plain
Well can I ask
"Just how long will it take before the sun kidnaps the waves?"
It holds me hostage to this day
(No one to pay the ransom)
My mother
She believes that there's a reason for everything
Well what's the reason I'm this way?

So I talk to myself
Because there's nobody else
I guarantee that I'll destroy myself
But it's out of my control
I talk to myself
Because there's nobody else
I guarantee that I'll destroy myself
But it's out of my control

Still wasting energy that I don't have
Trying to reignite this flame
But the embers just don't want to play
No not today
And just how long will it take for all the fog to separate?
I can't seem to clear the way
(A sadness I can't fathom)

So I talk to myself
Because there's nobody else
I guarantee that I'll destroy myself
But it's out of my control
I talk to myself
Because there's nobody else
I guarantee that I'll destroy myself
But it's out of my control

I have a tendency to break every promise to myself
This time I'll make sure I don't cave
Won't be another regression
Did I make a mistake in a past life?
I'm afraid that's the reason that I'm stained
Did I make a mistake? Did I make a mistake?
I must have made a mistake