Текст песни FAILED_TO_EXECUTE_090418 (Interlude) - IX Fall$

It really fucked me up
I couldn't get enough
On my own
I felt my life was literally
About to end before I even own up
To my mistakes
And everything that I had done wrong
Thought it was late
Belated birthdays are so fucking long
Far far away
Dedicated wasn't a fucking prolong
My my mistake
I apologize
I apologize
I apologize
I apologize
I apologize
I apologize

The 9th of April 2018, suicide note
Over the last 3 years, I've went through a lot of shit
Everything from being physically abused by my dad
Failing to stay sane, always having the urge to end everything
And failing to help those around me
Taking my own life is probably a very selfish act
Because I know there are people around me who care about me
But I honestly see no purpose in living anymore
All I'm doing is putting myself through unnecessary torture
Which is damaging me day-by-day, it's pointless
Whoever reads this, I just want you to know that your actions
Have no relation to my decision, and even if you have once knocked me down
The reality is I'm an extremely weak person
I've always been there to help everyone around me
No matter what they've done to me in the past
But sometimes I wish I wasn't so altruistic
Keep on smiling, and remember that your life has a purpose
Sadly mine doesn't
Lots of love, Rían