Текст песни Bastard - JayDaYoungan

My heart colder than Alaska
Living life without a father, shit was hard
I never knew I'd be a bastard
In love with the streets, shit, I ain't wanna leave
I never knew I'd be a rapper
Fell in love with music, I used to distribute
I'm supposed to be a trapper

Look me in my eyes, tell me what you see
Pain, this shit run deep
I swear I'm so tired of this shit 'til I'm weak
I ain't been able to sleep
I've been so paranoid, this shit creepy
I just been prayin' the Lord give me peace
I got to keep a rod close to me
Sometimes it be hard just to eat

They don't wanna see me win
It's hard to keep some friends
I'm tryna keep my mind focused
I'm tryna find peace again
I lay down with one of my eyes open
The reaper been pulling me in
Lord forgive me for all of my sins
Lord forgive me for all of my sins

Momma know I'm living reckless
She send me a message like, "Son be safe"
Goin' back to forth to court, I been stressin'
Thank God that I won the case
In the box, it's just me and depression
I'm fighting this shit everyday
All these demons won't leave me alone
Think it's better if I be alone

I know 12 wanna throw me in jail
I been walking a straight line
In my cell, I was stuck on no bail
Living life through FaceTime
Thought you fuck with me but I can't tell
All you did was waste time

Look, I'm exhausted

They tend to fuck over me often
Every time I get up, I keep falling
What you mean? Bitch, you know I'm still balling
Get the green like I played up in Boston
Walk through the storm and it rain on me
Kept it real through it all but they changed on me
Don't know why they always put the blame on me
Still rode for the man 'til my tank was on E

My heart colder than Alaska
Living life without a father, shit was hard
I never knew I'd be a bastard
In love with the streets, shit, I ain't wanna leave
I never knew I'd be a rapper
Fell in love with music, I used to distribute
I'm supposed to be a trapper

Look me in my eyes, tell me what you see
Pain, this shit run deep
I swear I'm so tired of this shit 'til I'm weak
I ain't been able to sleep
I've been so paranoid, this shit creepy
I just been prayin' the Lord give me peace
I got to keep a rod close to me
Sometimes it be hard just to eat