Jazzy's Tale

I think I've stayed in most of my relationships too long
I was chasing a love
And a life that I grew up seeing with my parents
So it was more-so about an idea in my head
Than an actual relationship that I had
Also, I just didn't want to be alone
Growing up, a brown skin girl
A fat girl
Essentially growing up feeling undesirable
I got older and I had a man that desired me
It validated me, and made me feel good about myself
Therefore, the content that the validation brought me
Was worth the actual pain that the relationship eventually brought
And it's a sad, scary, invulnerable place when you need to feel love
So much that you're willing to accept anything