Текст песни I Haven't Been Myself (DJ Form Remix) - John Reuben

Im not alright, I haven't been myself lately
Im not okay with the way Ive let my thoughts overtake
Take me away to the place I should have gone
I hope Im not here for long
Ill see you when Im better
I'll see you when I'm better
Its gotta get worse to get better
It went from no way, never to okay, whatever
Slowly but surely and sure as sure is blurry
Now things that once were me are no longer
Every so often God reminds me
But Im always there in front to blind me
I value my pride more than peace of mind
My precious pride
There was a time when I had control but I let it go
I watched the world passin slowmo
My lifes ahead of me
I can't catch up
Stuck in a rut
I went too willingly
These thoughts are killing me
I wish I could control myself but I cant
Or can I?
Man Im gone
I hope Im not here for long
Its just a visit
Ashamed of who Ive become
Its not really me
Or is it?
Im not alright, I haven't been myself lately
Im not okay with the way Ive let my thoughts overtake
Take me away to the place I should have gone
I hope Im not here for long
Ill see you when Im better
Thoughts lead to emotion which led to action
I hate the fact that it happened
The Lord can forgive and forget
But Im not able to do it
Maybe there is where the problem lies
Im unable to forgive myself plus Im too proud to ask for help
Whelp, sorry for who Ive become
I guess circumstances can leave you numb
Plus, I refused accountability
It seemed like such small things you found in me
I called you secluded and illuded to the fact that your concerns were silly
Don't over-react
Now looking back in hindsight, heh
Im able to see that you were right
Is it too late for me?
I know it's not
Its just up to me to choose to stop
Im not alright, I haven't been myself lately
Im not okay with the way Ive let my thoughts overtake
Take me away to the place I should have gone
I hope Im not here for long
Ill see you when Im better
Im not alright, I haven't been myself lately
Im not okay with the way Ive let my thoughts overtake
Take me away to the place I should have gone
I hope Im not here for long
Better
I'll see you when I'm better
Im not alright, I haven't been myself lately
Im not okay with the way Ive let my thoughts overtake
Take me away to the place I should have gone
I hope Im not here for long