Текст песни Pencil and Pad - Light

I told em I'd come with the energy or it didn't matter
So Imma show em' what I'm worth and get my pockets fatter
I want this money Imma steal it off your silver platter
My voice will ring around this Earth create a second Saturn
It comes natural a form of coping
So don't approach me
They say I'm antisocial
I just say I'm too damn focused
Ain't nothing stopping him when he starts and he's in motion
I'll say it how I feel it ain't no way I'll sugarcoat it
I'm a brave face but it's really just a front
I let the fear of failure come around and fuck me up
I tell these people I'll be the greatest there ever was
But I don't have a single clue where the fuck I'm going
I feel like
I really don't have a home if I'm honest
Sleep in parking lots tryna avoid and flee from this nonsense
My grandpops I've grown to hate that fuckin alcoholic
Threatening my grandma like he's better off without her but
He should be gone and that's the truth
Seen too much abuse
That time you threw up all over me
I thought that you
Had left this Earth right in front of my eyes
It's stuck in my mind
But you would never even care enough
You came back from the ER and drank with a smile uh

And you'd think that my grandma would give up and lose him
But I watch this all unfold as he yells at her and abuses
And I question why she helps him she says its habit to do it
But I lost my fuckin sanity just watching her go through it
And my views are changing I hope this shit ain't hereditary
See my sister battling I hope it don't end similarly
Where my home at when my life gets dark and shit gets scary
I can't even tell you man I don't know what life's preparing
And I don't say a single thing in person
I suck at expressing myself when I feel I'm hurting
So I put up this act
And I never mention that
The only ones I tell are this pencil and this pad