Текст песни Escape Plan - Manga Saint Hilare

A lot of my exes look the same
I kept making the same mistakes
I used to sit down waiting for things to happen looking for change
But things never changed, because, I never changed
I was in the smallest room in my Mum's house looking for space
I'd just stare into space
I think I need to escape
The feeling that I'm gonna get stuck here wouldn't go away
I had a lot of dark energy around me that I couldn't explain
But I didn't want to be saved
I woke up late
I didn't know myself, only knew my name
They seem to think that they know my heart
Just because you all know my face
I had no foresight, I had no faith
Had no focus, I had no way,
To get out all of these things that I was thinking
I was struggling to find my way
Ending my texts with just "cool" and "safe"
But I never felt cool or safe
Questioned all the calls I made
My purpose needs to get reclaimed
I just want some peace in my head
Pieces of me started feeling strange
Felt like nobody else has felt like this
I became a person I hate
So I'm lying here awake
Getting money and I'm pissing it away
Some days that I wish I wouldn't wake
What's it gonna take?
Feels like I'm living on the edge
Got thoughts that I know I shouldn't say
It's happening again
Sitting there and feeling so alone
In realities it never was the case
I'm digging my own grave
Really I'm just troubling myself
Been battling with my own brain
And I think that I died, at least one or two times
Old versions of me that I don't recognise
I watched day turn to night
I know I'm the cause of my own demise
I don't take my own advice
Watch things get worse so it's no surprise
I sat and I smiled and I meant to cry
I need to make it out alive
Things weren't going right, I wrote
I set a few goals, let go of my ego
Work for the ting, there wasn't a cheat code
Me against the world, I'm giving out free smoke
Oh, I started singing the results
Give it to my brudda I started to evolve
New energy, new me
I started it again like I'm getting a reload
Things are gonna be what they will be
I finally got back to the real me
I had so much baggage on my back
But I dropped them bags like I spent a few G
Devil in my head, I couldn't let him kill me
Madness in my head, so I wouldn't feel free
I'm rich in spirit and soul,
So I'm never gonna let myself ever feel cheap
Again