Текст песни Scholar - Landon Wordswell , Mortal Thing

Taking it back, I know I′m something
Even though I'm on my own
Looking up facts to keep me stable
Tell me I can go alone

Picking a story, it′s a fable
Weeping through the telephone
Ima relax, am I not able
When will I be going home

Oh I'm, I'm just a ghost
Whose tattered heart can′t seem to show

Tell me you know
Where I′m supposed to want to go
I've been alone
For so long I′m missing all my bones

I swear I've tried
To wake up like I′m still alive
But my fucking pride
Has wound up callous to my mind

It's just a lie
That it gets easier with time
Cause I never died
But death keeps telling me its fine

I can make a dollar but I′m belly up in water
And I'm thinking that I'll never be a meaningful marauder
But then I can make a monster and then send it to the slaughter
Cause I′m frankenstein, I′m feeling fine, I kept all of my fodder

I can be a leaver but I've got myself a fever
And it′s keeping me from wishing that I were a better dreamer
Cause I'm holding back my leisure, I′m a perilous achiever
And the feeling in my heart is that I'm only getting deeper

I′m passively dissonant
I'm just balancing on my skin
And the rate at which I'm growing
Has me thinking so crystalline

And I′m feeling like a bother
You know I′d rather be a scholar

There's a moment so eminent
When I′ll finally be intimate
With the hollow in my heart
And all my art will be articulate

I'm feeling like a bother
You know I′d rather be a scholar

Yo
I got these demons baby
And they navigate the way I'm thinking lately
I get haunted by em, yeah they seem to chase me
I know yes and no, I′ve never seen a maybe
Cause I innovate, within a cage
Begin to hate, my inner rage
My thoughts alone, can penetrate
This heart of stone, locked in a case

Everything I thought I kinda knew
Wasn't really what I thought it was
Now whenever we make minor moves
Haters hating on the thought of us

Pick up the paper though
Watch me I find a way
Itching to break the mode
Even if i'm delayed
Things that I hate to know
Making my mind a case
So when I chase, I go get it like andele
Andele, feeling some kind of way
This is what I′m up on
This is what I′ma say what
They get afraid so they nominate us
Living vicarious, I'm who they trust

Look, I got a patient mind
But it′s paper thin, yet I take my time
While I make amends
So I bake up rhymes
You can take it in, take it in

You can take it or leave it or break it to pieces
Lean on religion and pray to your jesus
If you see kindness don't take it for weakness
Learn this in time and I pray that you heed this
And I′m feelin unstable
Living in a world where everyone hates you
But they love to see you be the one fable
That they talk about like they were once faithful

Done, I think i'm done
Chasing acceptance holding my tongue
I′m just an artist loading my gun
I took a shot and I know what I've done
I'm just really tryina grow, giving everything I know
Put it all up on the line
Watching everything unfold

I′m passively dissonant
I′m just balancing on my skin
And the rate at which I'm growing
Has me thinking so crystalline

And I′m feeling like a bother
You know I'd rather be a scholar

There′s a moment so eminent
When I'll finally be intimate
With the hollow in my heart
And all my art will be articulate

I′m feeling like a bother
You know I'd rather be a scholar