so please (respectfully) leave me alone.

Socializing gives me nothing but anxiety
I don't know if you love me or if you'll just lie to me
It gets to where I isolate and think "if I just hide away
Then maybe I won't always feel like I should die today"
It's toxic, I know, it's codependent, it's cold
If I stop it, I grow but if I don't, I turn to stone (Stone)
I manifest emotions, and hope that they blossom
If you'd leave me the fuck alone, then baby that would be awesome
'Cuz I don't know what to call this, and it hurts if I'm honest
So I'll just hide my true intentions just to keep the peace regardless
I lie out of necessity, cuz I don't wanna piss you off
So I'll choose you instead of me, until my wants are tipped and lost
So please (Please), respectfully, leave me alone
'Cuz I can't take this anymore, so don't come see me at home
I've had it with feeling like all my wants are second best
I'm prioritizing my own sanity, and fuck the rest

Leave right now, go (You were the biggest part of me and now I feel lost)
Please (Leave me alone), leave me alone (I'm bettin' on myself and I don't care 'bout the Cost)
Respectfully (Respectfully, leave me alone)
Leave me alone

It's hard to put myself first when I've never known how (Never known)
My cards were in my deck until you said "double down"
I'm in trouble now, because this shit bubbled out
And now I'm payin' for my sins like I was hung in the crowd
You say that I'm changing, but if I was the same me
That I was at eighteen, I know that you'd hate me
But maybe I don't care no more (Maybe I don't care)
So I'll ghost you like I'm paranorm- (Ghost you like I'm paranormal)
And maybe that was wrong of me, I can admit it
But you couldn't drop your pride, even when the dynamic shifted (You couldn't)
I stayed out of necessity, and lied 'cuz of hope
Or maybe stayed out of hope, 'cuz I lie from necessity
'Cuz I felt you didn't want me to really become a better me (Nope)
So now when I sleep, it haunts me, it's this feeling of severing
A tendon and an artery, 'cuz you were the biggest part of me
But now I'm alone again, so I guess this marks a new start for me

Leave right now, go (You were the biggest part of me and now I feel lost)
Please (Leave me alone), leave me alone (I'm bettin' on myself and I don't care 'bout the Cost)
Respectfully (respectfully, leave me alone)
Leave me alone

Leave right now, go (you were the biggest part of me and now I feel lost)
Please (leave me alone), leave me alone (I'm bettin' on myself and I don't care 'bout the Cost)
Respectfully (respectfully, leave me alone)
Leave me alone

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