Текст песни Tears - Odd Squad Family

This that ride into the night life (ya)
This down hurt feelin′ cry and take you nite nite (nite)
This that therapy session to find a bright life (yep)
Sufferin' that mental abuse will make you like life (ya)
I′ve contemplated many times if the
Purpose of my life was to commit my suicide (hey)
I know the police they would love it they would
Show me where the gun is probably laugh as I would
Die but I ain't giving them the last laugh (nope)
Before I went to school the knife came out my backpack (let's go)
I pray to God just let me make it through my last class (yea)
Tryna make it out my struggle no use for a fast pass (hey)
And I′m still here workin′ at it (ya)
Lookin' back on life how I cope wit′ this and manage (how)
Long time ago i turned to dope to numb the damage (damn)
It ain't help I quit cause I am more than just an addict (I am)
More than just a cripple doctors wondered how I′d walk (yup)
I been asking God why me since I could talk (why)
Livin' this rough had turned me somethin′ far from soft (uh)
Pretty sure I'm gonna survive until God turns my switch off (hey)
It was my choice to make the basket (it was)
Glass half full life is just a perfect mess (it is)
Thankful for my life no pain I won't forget (nah)
Biggest blessing yet is that i haven′t met death

I feel like I have never felt at home
Inside my own mind I can′t be left alone
I feel the divide between my flesh and soul
I look to the skies I hope he lets me know
That there's somebody that′s watchin' this mighty episode
Is there somebody behind it all of my etch and flows
Walked on to the fire so they could let us roast
They gave us a life that we didn′t never chose
Since a youngin' knew am I forbid
Try to solve it but don′t know what problem is
I trap a bottle but I'm always lacking confidence
Unless it's in my I put my heart out on the carpet With
I′m the king at overthinkin′ things
Even in my deepest dream can't be at peace it seems
Can you hear the screams try not to listen when the demons speak
Try to pray but I can′t even think they say the weirdest things
So I doubt myself sometimes I wish that I could live without myself
Who need a bully when I'm best at putting down myself
′Stead theyll push me 'til I′m really going out myself
And it's hard for me to balance it
Still can't drown it out but i just learned to turn it down a bit
Never did learn how to handle it
Didn′t beat it I just channeled it

Can I tell you I hurt the most as a kid
When you look in the mirror and ask why am I like this
I was born this way there′s nothin' i coulda did
To make it worse you go to school and they sayin′ the same shit
They crackin' jokes some hit harder than most
You try to laugh but them tears still show
You just wanna make friends but think you′re gross
You've heard it all so much you believe it to be so
The odd one out the bunch
Everybody called me fat so I hated lunch
Everybody called me names so I picked one and ran with it
Things change like the seasons it wasn′t easy to handle it but I did
I stood on my ten I told myself you may fall but I vow to never quit
Your hindsight ain't good but try again
And one day you'll be as swift as the wind
But no matter how dark it gets
I′ll never be afraid of the dark again
Having confidence in myself is an accomplishment
Everybody deserves a little time to vent
Realize there′s thin lines between opposites
But that's what you attract so stay positive
They say shoot for the stars so I′m lobbing it
My lights gon' shine no matter what time it is
You heard me (you heard me, you heard me)