Текст песни Stranger, The Catalyst - Orakill

4th of August 2018
In the Midrand sun but swear my mind is out in Beijing
Trying to play it strong but swear to god my heart is breaking
Will I make it back home dawg coz everything is aching
And I'm numb from concentration
Couldn't feel a thing I fear I'm numb to the sensation
Showing all the signs exhibiting the degradation
So I'm doing things I usually wouldn't do no hesitation
But ima save that for later
Because later on that day I was on different behaviour
Because the liquor and the weed, the loudest set on the fader
Anything I need to steer me from the sorrow is catered
Then my dawgy call, he at the gate
Say he got a good excuse for why he fucken late
I'm like ayt dawg, whatever
I don't really give fuck I'm here enjoying the weather
Everybody sipping up until we feel kind of better
But the pain is overcoming so we might sip forever
Someone's knocking at the door
Which one of you have left it sticky on the floor
My younger cousin open up
Okay, that's Funga and his girl
But wait hold up, who's that with them
All I know is I don't know them
This the surprise that was supposed to leave me hoping
My niggah why would you do this, this after tears
This for people that's close and their closest peers
Why bring a stranger here
But that don't make it past my thoughts
The stranger then approach and say I'm sorry for your loss
She say I'm sorry for your loss
And I might be almost cracking but I play it like a boss
And I still owe so much grieving but I'm yet to pay the cost
But at least in this here moment I'm forgetting all my thoughts

So I roll another joint and I mix up another drink
And I'm getting to a point where I don't really wanna think
If we're drowning then make sure it's in the bottle that we sink
There's a catalyst among us but we don't know what it is

We're getting high playing darts on the balcony
I'm fucking with the energy, it's feeling like a remedy
Spark a convo with the stranger so she can acquaint to me
The last thing I expected was to find a common synergy
The substances are taking over
Get a call from mom she say she need me to come over
Good thing that we're chilling at my cousin's round the corner
Know the topics gonna be long but shit at least the distance shorter
So I been gone for maybe 25 minutes
It could be longer coz the fucken drugs innit
To my surprise on my return I'm shocked to find
We're missing one the stranger gone the homies say that she kicked it
I ask them why, they like coz she was hungry
And I'm like dawg you must be playing man that's fucken funny
Hit her up, tell her ima feed her
I apologize for turning up like I'm a diva
But I'm going through most
Still I haven't been a very gracious host
If you come back we could coast, we could kick it
We could feast, be at peace, but you're missing
How could I have know this moment would've been the catalyst
Stranger uber back her company is more than adequate
Took a while to notice but her beauty more than average
Like I said this was the catalyst
So we spend time talking
We spend time laughing, as the time stay clocking
It's getting pretty late but the vibes still rocking
I'm noticing a pattern that our eyes keep locking
Now we're outside walking
You tell me take your number
You say I better hit you up before you get to slumber
I'm wondering what kind of spell you're tryna put me under
I was dwelling in my gloom but girl you cleared the path to summer
Saw each other almost everyday for the next month
Still it's hard for me to fucken tell, what you might want
I can't
Get rid of the weeds that you might plant
So tell me what you might want
Coz about a week into this fling
I went and heard you got man
So I'm tryna get a feeling for your plan
I don't wanna be the source of problems
I don't want that on my hands
And I know for sure, I know you understand
The homies think you're using me
But honestly I'm using you too
As a shelter from the pain that bares true
I don't hide the fact that I don't like the way that niggah treats you
That don't mean I'm trying to make you my boo
But it's not like I'm not into it
It's not like we don't click
And girl it's not like we're not intimate
Did everything but cross the line and do the crime
The syndicates
Little did I know the catalyst might lead to infinite consequences
And learning of different lessons
Adulteries over depressions
The selfish make an impression
Abandoning every session
My musical drive it lessen
The buttons I see I'm pressing
The toxins they start infesting
I'm starting to lose affection
I'm following my erection
I'm moving with cool deception
I alias at reception
So nobody asking questions
Don't think I'll be seeing heaven
But father hear my confessions
These two years have been refreshing
But I'm on to different sections
And I'm just looking for some peace