Dirty Mirror Selfie

I've been looking at the night sky waiting
To find another glitch inside this matrix
The amniotic that we all were made in
It's just the water that we wait in

Well I'm an honest man, I'll admit my mistakes
But what good is that when your reality breaks?
Arbitrary moments in your life are replaced
By that feeling that you're not in control

Because I hated myself for so long
Just to figure out that it was never my fault
There was something evil inside me
Putting my anger anger at
All of the things that I thought that I lacked
Now I'm taking that back

And as I look onto a world unwinding
There's silicon instead of silver linings
The golden rule by which we've all been mining
What the hell are we refining?

Well I'm an honest man, I'll admit my mistakes
But what good is that when your reality breaks?
Arbitrary moments in your life are replaced
By that feeling that you're not in control

Because I hated myself for so long
Just to figure out that it was never my fault
There was something evil inside me
Putting my anger anger at

Dirty bathroom mirrors, and the person looking back
But it's a matter of time before I'm conquering it
I'll grab it in a chokehold, now I know I'm stronger than it
All this time I wasted struggling
Fighting for things that I thought that I lacked
Now I'm taking that back
Now I'm taking that back

I guess it probably serves me right
Even if it ends up feeling kind of wrong
I think about it every single night, I never sleep for long
I wake up every morning faking smiles
But it doesn't seem to budge a thing, I'm stuck and buffering
This fucking suffering only amounts in to stupid little songs

Because I hated myself for so long
Just to figure out that it was never my fault
There was something evil inside me
Putting my anger anger at
Dirty bathroom mirrors, and the person looking back

But it's a matter of time before I'm conquering it
I'll grab it in a chokehold, now I know I'm stronger than it
All this time I wasted struggling
Fighting for things that I thought that I lacked
Now I'm taking that back