Текст песни So Fucking Lonely - Problematic

Oh oh, ah, ah
Oh oh, ah, ah

Still lost, hangin' on by a thread
So much negativity up inside my head
I'm so sick and tired of bein' sick and tired
I don't want the spotlight, I don't wanna be admired

I just want somethin' real, where I feel somethin'
Come alive inside, gotta stop runnin'
Started questionin' if I chose the right path
But I've invested in myself to get where I'm at

Layin' down, hit the pillow but I can't sleep
Lost for words, don't get mad if I can't speak
Been suffocatin' for so long, now I can't breathe
Went on a bender, seven days, that makes one week

Guess I better snap back, get my shit together
Either that or relapse, scary seven letters
I'm really tryna find a balanced homeostasis
But lately been a non-believer like an atheist

Yeah my thoughts keep runnin', thoughts keep runnin' but I won't plummet
It's a double-edged sword, I'm so alone, ain't no-one comin'
I say I'm fine but I'm not okay, I'm not okay
Lookin' at the sky, it's dark and grey, hopin' and I'm prayin' that I find my way

Who knew
That this road be so fuckin' lonely?
And I gave you
Everything I had but you disowned me

Who knew
That this road be so fuckin' lonely?
And I gave you
Everything I had but you disowned me

From the outside lookin' in, life's great
They don't see the sacrifice that I had to make
They don't see the pain, they don't see the scars
They just see the fame, wonder how I made it this far

I'm immensely involved in my passion but these walls caving in and I'm crashin'
All the people I used to be close to nowhere to be found, how the hell did this happen?
I'm simply exhausted
My body, it aches, get the tremble and shakes, now my stomach is feelin' so nauseous

I want to escape, but I'm stuck in my ways and the devil keeps knockin' regardless
But I won't let him in, I'ma fight 'til the end because quitting is just not an option
It's just not an option
No time to be stallin'

Who knew
That this road be so fuckin' lonely?
And I gave you
Everything I had but you disowned me

It's so lonely
So fuckin' lonely
It's so lonely (yeah)
So fuckin' lonely