Текст песни DESERVE - Rxs3

Crawl out from under the overdose
Plainclothes watching so I gotta keep my secret close
Timecode, run it back
Wake up in an ambulance
Got marks, ain't running track
If it's a race, call this a record setting victory lap
Ten seconds from the top to the bottom
Ain't a fucking role model
I'm just stuck in all my problems
They're killing me
Hallucination slowly turns reality
I used to promise I would never touch sniff
That's a lie; I just said it cause I couldn't admit
That hope was never there, only saw the despair
Generational pain, was my mother's cross I bear
And her mother and her mother and her fucking grandmother
Fear and anxiety set in my biology
Studied chemistry, never got good grades
But I'm street smart, I know exactly what to take
Physically, I'm falling apart
Try to stay together, I'm never easy on the heart
Marathon lines in these troubling times
One day I'll drop, I'm sure the choice was never mine
If it was, would be through by now
But I'm still here somehow
Stand up and take a bow
It all stops when the penny drops
Living ghoul, a paradox
The holy gates forever locked

Guess I get what I deserve, don't I?
It all stops when the penny drops

Guess I got what I deserved
Isolation served with a side of just deserts
Yeah, I guess it's all my fault
Smoking grade waiting for my early grave
Man, it's just too much to take
Just threw up in the lobby
Escorted outside, dare security to stop me
Only there for a link
Stop and think
Watch my life toppling down
Let the public gather round
I put my heart out on display
I left my mind backstage
Like a bird let out a cage
I'm never coming back again
Separate myself from pain
Depersonalisation
That isn't me in the mirror
Just the ghost of paths I've taken
Fork in the road where the two shall meet
Both come to same defeat
Ain't no sermon left to preach
Ain't no lesson left to teach
Just don't repeat my mistakes
End of line, turn the page

Guess I get what I deserve don't I?
It all stops when the penny drops