Текст песни FTMK - Ryuu

I'm stuck without reason
Concealed what I'm breathing
Panicky and frantically searching for a meaning
Lost and distraught but my chest keeps on beating
I try to brush it off but I'll keep on bleeding
So I guess its just me then
No ones left to help me since you have been leaving
All by myself tryna to cope with my demons
Telling me to quit but I'm looking for a reason
And right now it's not looking pleasing
And I'm caught in the trap of my very own being
The feeling in my chest feels like it's deepening
Praying for forgiveness that no one is receiving
Learn through life's lessons the past was depression
There's no easy answers battling with obsessions
Just a long road filled with transgressions
And even if the sky is grey tomorrow is another day
Thoughts ripple like tidal waves it's like I can't get away
Running for the exit but it's looking like the other way
The thought of you is on my mind almost everyday
Asking why your leaving wishing you could stay
But it's all good cause I know your in a better place
Drugs and alcohol never filled that hole you just can't erase
Hold you in my heart but snow is where your body lays
Sprinkled on the mountains it is where your spirit stays

Falling to my knees
Struggling to breath
Been a couple weeks and I'm feeling kinda weak
Emotions on my chest that I'm struggling to preach
So I'll write it in a song it's my only way to reach
Falling to my knees
Struggling to breath
Been a couple weeks and I'm feeling kinda weak
Emotions on my chest that I'm struggling to preach
So I'll write it in a song it's my only way to reach

I can't lie there's pain I did hide
I was cheating my diet ran round like a riot
No shame in defeat but I ran cause I'm weak
No pain I could beat felt my cycle repeat
Staring in the mirror hate what I seen
Vacant would cease til my brain felt deceased
No drugs I would take send my mind into ease
Just the subs that I took all led to disease
A Skitzo with no hope
A frame with no photo
Carcass of pain from the shame that they don't know
Forsaken to blame let em cope how they know so
Weight off their chest and I'll burden the low blow
Can't seem to function my brains out production
I'm caged from the problems can't change in a substance
I'm breaking the bricks that I build for my comfort
Cause rain filled the pits I hid when I'm running
Plant of a seed now a family of weak
Sprouts in the shadows neglects what you see
Clan filled of 7 we got what we need
But I was the baby so scraps they would feed

Falling to my knees
Struggling to breath
Been a couple weeks and I'm feeling kinda weak
Emotions on my chest that I'm struggling to preach
So I'll write it in a song it's my only way to reach
Falling to my knees
Struggling to breath
Been a couple weeks and I'm feeling kinda weak
Emotions on my chest that I'm struggling to preach
So I'll write it in a song it's my only way to reach