Текст песни Choices - Sean Michael feat. Seek the Fallen

I sit here contemplating
These choices that I've made
I look up to the sky
And ask Him will I
Still be save
I'm not the best person
I know I'm not a saint
Still I just keep on fighting
For another fucking day
Yeah, I just contemplate
These choices that I've made
I look in the mirror
And I wonder why I haven't gone insane
I say to myself
"Don't you know not to bite the hand that feeds you?"
"You talk your shit and that's why not a single soul believes you"
"When you tell the truth, come backs to you and bites you in the ass!"
I want to scream
But all I do is
Laugh
Sometimes I think if I was bad I'd have a different fate
At least then I'd have a reason
To keep making these mistakes
'Cause
I sit here contemplating
These choices that I've made
I look up to the sky
And ask Him will I
Still be save
I'm not the best person
I know I'm not a saint
Still I just keep on fighting
For another fucking day
This perfect picture that I paint,
Is riddled with my own mistakes
Attempts to find a way of stopping
Me from going
INSANE!
Always thinking of the people that I miss
But then my mind begins to twist and sends all the blame
YOUR WAY!
And now my brain is so deranged
That I never feels pain
Consumed by smoke and infected by foul play
Try to leave it all behind but I find
That no matter where I run
My guilt will always
FUCKING CHASE ME!
Over and over
One then another
Hand full of pills
And a bottle full of vodka
They won't take the edge off
It keeps getting harder
To right all these wrongs
So forgive me father
The drink and the drugs
Never helped through the pain
To me this is hell
And I'm finding my way
Through fucked up reality
We're fuelling with hate
Too fun to be a sinner
Why would I be a saint?
Past the point of no returns
I've made my path
I had to learn
The key to being me so I will
WATCH YOU MOTHER FUCKERS BURN!
I sit here contemplating
These choices that I've made
I look up to the sky
And ask Him will I
Still be save
I'm not the best person
I know I'm not a saint
Still I just keep on fighting
For another fucking day
I had a friend
No not a friend
He was a brother indeed
For the longest time
I could tell
He was a brother in need
Of something other than these pills
That made him fall to his knees
Until they took him over and they
Took my brother away from me
My grandma was a saint
The kind of person we should all become
When cancer took her over
All I could feel was numb
I can't forget my mom
The strongest person I know
She raised my sister and myself
She did all that on her own
Some days I think if it's all worth the
Suffering and pain
But then I see their faces
And I know it'll all be ok
But I can't help but want to start a life of my own
Leave it all behind
And change my name
And not feel so alone
It's like I'm drowning in my sorrows
And forgetting how to swin
And at the bottom of that ocean
Is my life
And it's so damn grim
But I'm not gonna sit here
And let my problems
Get the best of me
I'm just gonna do what I do best
And that's to sing
I sit here contemplating
These choices that I've made
I look up to the sky
And ask Him will I
Still be save
I'm not the best person
I know I'm not a saint
Still I just keep on fighting
For another fucking day
I sit here contemplating
These choices that I've made
I look up to the sky
And ask Him will I
Still be save
I'm not the best person
I know I'm not a saint
Still I just keep on fighting
For another fucking day