The Prayer

Bible by my bed mama said that I need it
Is there a God sometimes I wonder if I believe it
Do I and if I don't what's the reason
Am I being logical or just being conceited
Coz if I stacked my testimonies I would tear up the ceiling
But I only seem to pray when convenient
Look I'm only human-made and not begotten
Sometimes I give in to my demons
Maybe my mind can't fathom unconditional love
So I recreate God in my image and give him limits
So full of myself and everything I'm achieving
Yet I'm on my knees when I'm grieving
Sometimes I get high and resort to binge drinking
Misusing some of the gifts that I'm given
Look I'm dealing with pressure
Sometimes I feel it's depression
If God got me what's the reason I'm stressing
Or second-guessing Him
I know my life is a lesson
And it's leading me straight to His presence
If the road to hell is often paved with good intentions
Father, please shed some light on my efforts
I feel like Jacob when he wrestled with God
I'm not letting go till I get my blessings my blessings

My whole life is a prayer
I live my whole life as a prayer
My whole life is a prayer
I live my whole life as a prayer
Walk with faith so my conscience is clear
I live my whole life as a prayer
After all I've been through
I know you've always been there
So I live my whole life as a prayer

There's nights when I can't sleep
And am down to my last wit
Coz I've had such a bad streak
And am staring at life's cliff
For heights that I must reach
Lord help my unbelief
To look past the doubts and just leap
I gotta get past this
Maybes and What ifs
Tried it on my own got more questions than answers
Some of my actions
Leave me weary and anxious
Things I do for ego weigh so heavy on my conscience
Still, I pray for better days
Praying for the day all my fears will get castaway
Learning to accept all the things I cannot change
Praying for the courage to change the things I can
For so long
I held on to the pain like it's all I have known
Held on to this pain like I didn't want to be alone
I realize you were with me all along in prayer

My whole life is a prayer
I live my whole life as a prayer
My whole life is a prayer
I live my whole life as a prayer
Walk with faith so my conscience is clear
I live my whole life as a prayer
After all I've been through
I know you've always been there
So I live my whole life as a prayer

They say I fell 5 floors
I say I damn near flew
God said my time is nowhere near through
I stay true and do what I got to
It's my way of telling GOD thank you
For nights that I couldn't sleep
Times when my faith was weak
Times you guided me through sites that I couldn't see
Times that you stood by me, through fights that I couldn't win
One set of prints in the sand is when You carried me
So yeah, I owe you my devotion?
You pick from the rubble and fix me when I was broken
You fix me up a table and sanctify my portion
Though I don't deserve you multiply my fortune
Not by my faith or my Merrit
But by the works of Your spirit
Your word is all that I needed I'm not too woke to admit it Let's pray

My whole life is a prayer
My whole life, My whole life
My whole life is a prayer
My whole life, My whole life